Nikkie-chan

Can I PLEASE STOP FUCKING UP?!

I would like to begin with this: If I have ever fucked up
in your presense, I am sorry. If I have ever fucked up and
you have suffered the results, I am REALLY sorry. Put me
out of my goddamn misery. Especially if I mean well. I'm
just paving the way to my own personal hell.

And just to prevent myself from fucking up anyone else's
existence, Nikkie is done with romance. Done, completely. I
turned that emotion off. Over. Nadda. Save me some pain in
the future.

I just want the people that I care about to be happy... Is
that so much to fucking ask?! I thought I understood what
was going on, but I haven't a clue, EVER! Why the hell did
I think now would be different?! May I once and for all get
the final message.

I'm going to cry now and pray that people don't hate me.
Goodnight.

Nikkie