pensive problematic

all in one day

so much could happen in one day its amazing
today: i went a funeral of a boy i didn't even know
he was 15, only a freshmen in high school...its sad that it
has to take an unexpected death of someone who had so much
more to experiance and give in this world. at least he's
going to a better place...God bless his soul and his family.
aside from that horrible tragedy, i have my own misfortunes
to deal with. at times like this i wish i knew no
one...then i would only have to suffer lonliness and not
heart ache, confusion, despair, or the complications of
helping the ones you care about go through the same thing...
i got major friend problems happening to me. i got friends
i've known for a while coming into my life then kicking me
out of theres then coming back and doing ot again....that
can't be good. but i can't help but care about this person
i guess thats why i keep giving them chances and letting
them come back....i need to tell then that i'm tired of
their shit...
a friend of mine who cares deeply about me, is going
through a major hard time right now. i am really worried
about him. he scares me in a way that i know i can't do
anything to help him...and what scares me is that i'm
afraid of what he will do. i don't know what i can do to
help him...

SO MANY THINGS GOING ON IN MY LIFEI WISH IT COULD ALL BE
CLARIFIED AND VANISHED...NO MROE CONFUSION! PLEASE NO MORE
PAIN!