as the Oval turns
as of late...
Well, a lot is going on, I guess.
The other day, I got a chance to talk to a couple of
friends I hadn't talked to in a grip. I talked to my
friend Jerm for the first time since the summer, when he
said goodbye to us in Ohio and went home to Cali. He was
off the hook, and I miss him. So it was great finally
touching base with him.
Then I also talked to my friend K for the first time since
the beginning of summer (the first entry in my journal).
He's doing well. He's back in school and working towards a
degree in computer programming. That's great. He also
doesn't have a girlfriend...still. But I'll say the same
thing I said before, he has no one to blame but himself.
It was great to be able to talk to him about how he feels
and how I feel about Jesus and what Christianity means to
each of us.
Well, let's see. Last night I was thinking about what the
heck is keeping Pacey and I from being together. Every so
often, it comes to mind. See, when I talked to K, the
whole 411 on Pacey came up. Basically, K said that after
all the drama and crap we've gone through, it's amazing
that we're still friends. Yeah, that's kind of true, but
We do stuff together, we hang out, we do things as a couple
(in the loosest sense of the word), yet we're not
together. If I had my way, we would be. However, in the
wise words of the Rolling Stones, "you can't always get
what you want." I wonder what reason of the year Pacey has
for not wanting to move to that next level. Marie and
Jenna say that it's b/c right now he's concentrating on his
major and preparing for med school. I guess so. Maybe
that explains why he hasn't had a gf in over 2 years. But
I haven't had a bf in the same amount of time, so I don't
know. I'm really trying not to be selfish, but I wonder
about these things. I think that I could accept what he
had said in the beginning, during freshman year (although
it would demonstrate how shallow he is, but it is what it
is). But he isn't the most consistent person on the planet
either, and his actions do not really correlate
w/his "reasons." Sometimes I wonder if it's something
else, something that he doesn't want to mention to me for
whatever reason. It's a mystery. But oh well.
Today, I ate with Pacey, and we talked about a lot of stuff
going on, from the tuition hike to feminism and women
POWs. Sometimes I think I talk too much, especially for
being a woman. I tend to be opinionated and direct w/those
opinions, and I wonder if that can be threatening to a
man. Pacey says he'd rather me talk to much than talk too
little. That's a good thing, since he's a man of few words.