angryanymore

angryanymore
2002-02-07 18:46:34 (UTC)

as brian warner once said

here i am... skipping lunch to post this entry... i
received a message in the inbox of my diary this morning...
and it critically thrashed the fact that "girls" (meaning
myself) didn't appreciate the good and deserving guys of
the world... ... ... i truthfully and honestly need to
reply to this statement... so as... perhaps i might be able
to explain the reasons i said things i said... in my
previous post...

chip is great. chip is wonderful. and i appreciate his
worth. and dating is fun. it truly is. but i'm 17 years
old... and i'm not ready to apply the glue to my torso and
attatch myself to someone for the rest of my life just
because they are good. ... is good enough for anyone?
no. ... i enjoy dating chip. maybe things will grow and
ferment in the furture... but now. ... i want to be myself
i want to be free to state facts... as i see them... and i
want to explore the depths of everyone i come in contact
with... that's important for everyone... NO ONE should tie
themselves down.. .after only a few months of dating...
commitment shouldn't be something that a couple has to
discuss... it comes in time... just as love does... ... and
at this point in time... i am in love with not a person...
but words... and literature... and the ideas of
romance... ... i cannot help that. i cannot change
that. ... so let me fly... let me date... .. allow me to be
the person i am TODAY... and... i know that all will come
as it is supposed to... ... don't tear at my flesh because
you can't see my point of view... these are my eyes to gaze
from... no one else's... but i truly appreciate your
opinion, mr. anonymous... thankyou.. it's something i can
water and watch grow.

... now... i'm off to lunch to mingle with my friends...

later.

neeley.