kat5831

Thoughts to Share
2002-02-07 04:38:24 (UTC)

Part III

I apologize for this never-ending saga of my weekend. :-p
This whole studying and 5 tests within 5 days is getting in
the way. Anyways....so the super bowl party. We had told
Kelly that we were coming, so we were down there eating and
hanging out with everyone, and of course watching the
commercials, b/c you know that's the most important part of
the game. :-p Then I hear them singing happy birthday and
I turn around and Kelly has made me a cake. With the fun
icing with candy pieces in it you know?! So then we all
ate cake...and it was just really nice. Actually, probably
one of the best parts of my birthday just b/c it was
totally a suprise (my roommate fooled me :-p) and everyone
is so super nice. So that was all. :-p Hope it was worth
the wait...hehe.

First cell test today. For a test that was only supposed
to have 7 pts of short answer...I believe we were all
rather suprised to find that there were only 23 multiple
choice questions, about 6 fill in the blank...and that's
right folks....the rest....3 or 4 pages of essay/short
answer. I was not happy. Yeah-it was pretty tough. Not
so happy about it.

Spent tonight studying for my first microeconomics test.
It's a lot of stuff...5 chapters worth. Finished going
over everything tonight..for the first time, just kinda
reading it all...tomorrow, I will attempt to digest it.

Also I remembered tonight that I have THE meeting
tomorrow. I think I felt better having forgotten about
it. Of course my mom managed to make me ill about some
things in discussing it. Whatever...I guess that's just
how mothers are. I'm just nervous...no...more along the
lines of deathly afraid. It's just that I have no idea
what I am walking into and I know how I am. When I'm
nervous, and alone, I don't perform well. I don't make
sense, I get shaky, I usually make myself physically ill.
But I should just go in with an open mind, go in being
myself. If they don't like that, then it's not the path I
need to take. Say a little prayer for me please. And
these are my mother's words of advice:

night...love...stay warm....stay cool tomorrow with ______,
pretend you're dealing with a tough customer
don't let him rattle you....act like you know what you're
talking about....be confident, not apologetic (oh...you
have to be that with customers don't you)

That's my mother.

Martha-Wade and Lee came to visit Heather tonight....that
was fun. It was so sweet of them to come to cheer Heather
up on her bad day. Yay for friends! :-)

I keep realizing that I have more and more to do this
weekend.

One hand
Reaches out
And pulls a lost soul from harm
While a thousand more go unspoken for
They say what good have you done
By saving just this one
It's like whispering a prayer
In the fury of a storm

And I hear them saying you'll never change things
And no matter what you do it's still the same thing
But it's not the world that I am changing
I do this so this world will know
That it will not change me

This heart
Still believes
The love and mercy still exist
While all the hatred rage and so many say
That love is all but pointless in madness such as this
It's like trying to stop a fire
With the moisture from a kiss

And I hear them saying you'll never change things
And no matter what you do it's still the same thing
But it's not the world that I am changing
I do this so this world will know
That it will not change me

As long as one heart still holds on
Then hope is never really gone

I hear them saying you'll never change things
And no matter what you do it's still the same thing
But it's not the world that I am changing
I do this so this world we know
Never changes me

What I do is so
This world will know
That it will not change me
~The Change, Garth Brooks

Not really sure right now...not really sure at all.