Self harming dyke
She has written... I think!
I finally got a letter today, sent to the formal address I
gave her, postmarked Bristol... it must be from her. BUT...
I can't open it. I don't know what to do. I want to see
what she has written, but I am scared in case it isn't what
I want to hear. What if it is just a list of the
prescriptions I had, like I asked her. Or what if it is
scathing - lost interest and uncaring? Even if it is great,
I can't bear the thought of having read it and then it
would be gone. No more contact with the doctor from that
point on. As soon as I have read it, there will be no more
of her to enjoy.
What I would really like would be if she says that I could
ring her if I wanted to talk and gave me a contact number.
I know this is beyond the realms of both professionalism
and reality, but a girl can dream, can't she?
I LOVE HER and I miss her sooooo much. I was just telling
my therapist last night how I was sad that I hadn't had a
reply. Well now I have it and I have become incapable of
PS I'm gonna open it and see that it is from her and se how
long it is, but not read it. Here I go...
OK it's from the medical centre...signed by her...I'm gonna
read it... It's over now. I won't hear from her again. What
will I do without her? I can't cope with this anymore