sweetaddiction

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2002-02-06 00:12:00 (UTC)

so im home. i feel like i..

so im home. i feel like i havent been home in a long time.
probably because i havent.
i went to emilys yesturday and stayed the night.
she was really sick...but i think i helped. i hope so
anyway.
shes grounded and that kind of sucks for me. because, that
means that she cant come here. although, im one of the FEW
actually good influences in her life. but...whatever. i
completly understand that her mom has to do SOMETHING
because if there is no repercussion from her actions then.
yeah. whatever. its like shes 3 man. she knows she fucked
up. and you know, shes not a little kid. either shes going
to change or shes not. i dont have control over her, her
mom doesnt. no ones besides her. and...i wish i could talk
some sense into her sometimes. but i cant.
and how exactly are you supposed to save someone from
themselves?
exactly. you cant.
i just hope that i can help somewhat in making the right
decisions. i hope she respects my views at least a little.
and that that can help her, help her.
but like i said.
it is her life.
and im going to love her regardless.
im not saying that shit like this doesnt affect me.
because it does.
and if she doesnt know that, then shes oblivious.
thats something that i dont think she takes into
consideration too much when shes put into situations.
that her actions, decisions, affect MORE than just her.
so many people care about her.
and shes involved in so many different peoples lives.
she just doesnt think. about that anyway.

moving on...
ive spent practically all day with shawn and christina.
her and i have talked a lot today. and ive been attempting
to make her feel better...kind of. shes really bad right
now. she is so fucking insane.

im going to take a little nap.




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