phantasmagoria

phantasmagoria
2002-02-03 02:54:06 (UTC)

hmm.....

i just don't know what's going on anymore. it's so weird.
sometimes he just blows me off, but other times he's so
sweet and wonderful that i can't even remember the other
times. at the sweet and wonderful times he's perfect. i
know he doesn't blow me off on purpose. i don't think so
anyway. i'm just more sensitive than he thinks i am. and
i shouldn't be this way. i know i have nothing to worry
about. i don't know why i get so worked up over small
things. but i do. and it's stupid. shame on me.
i just wonder if he's ever going o talk to me about the
thing he said he was going to talk to me about. i'd be
fine if he didn't, i just wish he'd say he's not so i don't
have to worry about it anymore. i think i'm just going to
start operating as if he wasn't. then i won't fret as
much.
he lent me his jadket-type-thingy yesterday. it was so
nice. it smelled like him. very pleasant.




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