still single

fucking men!!!

I hate men...they are so dick oriented...ok..now that I've
got that off my chest...I just got back from shopping which
was depressing as always..look like a cow in
everything.Fuck.I've been smoking today..bought a pack of
cigs..couldn't handle it...I am going to force myself to
exercise after I write in here if it's the last thing I
do..What good is dieting if you don't exercise...then the
skin will just hang off me..lovely thought..well
dickhead..I mean Eddie has not called...I can't help but
dwell on the whole hair thing.To think for a brief moment I
thought I might have to choose between 2 guys(Was I living
in Fantasyland or what?)I keep thinking I'm 18 and gorgeous
still...I'm not bad looking but I want to be thin again
with HAIR!!!!Is that so much to ask..?Well apparently it
is..Fuck It!!!I have the urge to call up Eddie(my ex that
I'm friends with) and see if he has any chronic to smoke
with me...I alway enjoy are stoney conversations.but
everytime I call him he is busy doing this or that...he
works opposite hours as me so it makes it difficult to hang
out..anyway I really want to talk to one of the Eddies!!!!!
ok...will right again when I get the chance..