Hopeful Dreamer

The Soap Opera That Is My Life...
2002-02-01 02:35:46 (UTC)

Have A Good Day Rotten To The Core Cherished One

Well I've gone 6 days without talking to Megan, go me! She
drives me crazy, first all this stuff with Kris and then
she says "goodbye" to me and tells me she wants me out of
her life. So I went the weekend without talking to her,
totally avoiding me and she e-mails me saying she's worried
because she hasn't heard from me lately. Ok what the
heeck?!!? Ugh, so I've been disgregarding any e-mails she
sends me, screening my calls for her, not picking up when
she does call, not responding to her messages or anything.
I even blocked her on my buddy list. I just can't take what
she does to me. She tells me she still loves me and wants
to work things out, a week later she tells me she loves and
wants to be with Kris. Christmas night she yells at me and
tells me she'll never take me back, she wants to be with
Kris anyways, a few days later tells me part of her wants
me back. And now, she can't even tell me she's been seeing
Kris. She just plays me and I'm sick of it. Especially now
since she kicked me out of her life and then is wondering
why she hasn't heard from me, uh, hello, yea Mars, come and
take Megan back.
I'm not even telling her that I'm avoiding her, because
then she'll yell at me for that and it'll bring up so many
damn problems and I just can't deal with it. I just need a
break from her right now, I know not telling her is wrong
cause she's worried where I am since she hasn't heard from
me but I just need time away from her.
The police came and took me out of class today. They said
Megan called them saying I might be missing since she
hasn't heard from me. Like she cares, she's just on a guilt
trip, she must be thinking I killed myself because she
threw me out of her life and is on a major guilt trip,
that's it, she doesn't care, she just thinks she's guilty
of my "dissapearance." I explained to the cops what was
going on and asked them if they had to tell Megan anything.
They said no, but if she calls back again they'll just tell
her they gave me the message that she has been looking for
me and is worried where I am and that was all they could
do. So good, she won't know I'm avoiding her. I just can't
take her constant high of ripping my heart out night after
night after night.
I care about her, I don't know if I still love her but I
just can't take what's she's been doing to me. I can only
take so much and I reached my limit so long ago.




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