Infiniterocker

hello kitty cat
2002-01-31 17:01:44 (UTC)

it comes down to this...

So Jason and I had a really good night last night. We talked
things over...we decided we're not going to let those silly
"incidents" happen anymore. They just tear us apart...it's
because we're both scared...scared that one day this will
end...and we're both so stubborn that when we argue...*it's
not even arguing*...we both are so stubborn that sometimes
we don't go anywhere. Last night Katy talked to my cousin
Victoria who is worried about me...and she totally made it
sound like I was being naive and silly..and that I had all
these problems...and then this morning she said "Kelly I
talked to Victoria" and I was like "Yeah, I got your email"
and then she asks "Did I do OK?"....and it's like KATY...OF
COURSE YOU DIDN'T YOU MADE IT SOUND LIKE JASON IS NOT
TREATING ME RIGHT...BY BEING DISTANT IN YOUR ANSWER. AHH.
She has a false sense of what relationships are like...maybe
it's because she has this idea that everyone could be
against her...from being made fun of as a child. I don't
really know. Just as I think she's taking a step forward she
shows me that she can't even walk...I think she's more
interested in teh idea of growing than actually trying ..or
wanting to grow herself...I wrote her an email..Jason said
he did too..I haven't seen his email. I'm in English I'm
supposed to be writing an outline for my senior
project...busy work....I could write the paper today and be
finished with it..but they make you drag it out into this
LONGGGGGGGG process ...personally I think it's all bullshit.
But hey...it's easy grades.