ashley

writings on the wall
2002-01-31 06:31:59 (UTC)

blowjobs vs real sex...which do guys prefer?

The second day, my dear darling accompanied me to my
uni's pre-departure briefing. it was boring & he had
endured it for 5 hours although i did caught him nodding
off during the talk. then while i was arranging for my
accomodation, he was hanging around, doing nothing. i was
touched but that was not the main reason why i had sex
with him.

i had sex with him because....actually, i am not
really sure why i had sex with him. maybe it's because i
want to have sex & he's there for me? or that i find him
kinda cute & the size of his cock acceptable? actually,
honestly, he's not my type as i can only see myself with
him as great friends, sex partners maybe? friends who will
call each other up if they are not seeing anybody at the
moment & having a sex-drought. as the saying goes "a
friend in need is a friend indeed" & i also can feel that he has no
interest in being more than friends with me. we do hold hands & call
each other "darling" but that does not have to mean anything right?

after the briefing, we went shopping. okay, maybe it
was him accompanying me shopping, whatever. it doesn't
really matter right? i think the highlightof the day was when i saw
this nice MNG handbag & wanted to buy it. he said that i
had spend so much money & that i shouldn't be spending
that much of my mom's money on a bag. at first, i was
reluctant to listen to him but i gave in (because i knew he had a
point & i felt guilty) & went home
without the bag.

while waiting for cab, the brat had the courage to
say that he was tired & that he wanted to go to bed
immediately after taking his bath. very funny! i know that
both of us are REALLY looking forward to that night &
there was no way that nothing was NOT going to happen.

i was staying at my old place, in my friend's room
but my other housemates are around. i introduced Ken & we
quickly went into the bedroom. while taking his bath, my housemate
came in to talk & asked who he was. i told her that he was just a
friend. sometimes i really hate it when i have
to explain my behaviour to the people around me.

when i finally get to feel his cock in me, it felt
good. i was so wet & i think it was because of the
anticipation of the act. i remembered that we were very conscious of
the sounds we made & the bed wasn't much of a help because it was
creaking. there were 2 beds in the room & we had to keep changing
beds because one of them is too near to the other room while the
other one was making WAY too much noise. it was kinda funny, come to
think of it.

i remembered him asking me to
touch his cock in the cab on the way home after he
unzipped it. it felt exciting & i wonder if the cab driver
saw us but he didn't say anything.

he didn't cum in me, so i offered to suck him. what
is it with guys & blowjobs? sometimes i really wonder if
they like it more than the real thing itself. if there are
any guys out there reading this, can you please tell me
how you feel about this?

well, i hate blowjobs because i know i suck at them.
a guy once told me that he can feel my teeth when i sucked
him & it's a no-no. so i am very conscious when i give
them. handjobs also worry me because i am afraid that i'll
accidentally tug at his pubic hairs. ouch!

he finally came after masturbating himself (again!)
it keeps me wondering if it was my fault that he couldn't
cum but then i have not had this problems with the other
guys before. well, this time he came in my mouth & he
tasted nice, almost sweet & definitely better than last
night!