tarletondiva

Trials and Tribulations
2002-01-31 00:57:05 (UTC)

Last night was wonderful

I'm in the office right now. I'm hoping that we will be
done soon. I'm exhausted and I want to go home. My
back is killing me, not that that's unusual.

Today has been a long, cold, difficult day...only because
I feel like shit. Last night, however, was just what I
needed. J and I went and spent a couple of hours
together after we left the office. I really needed to just
relax and be with someone that I love being with, which
isn't very many people. We talked for a couple of hours
and I watched him play his game. I will never tell him
this :), but I even enjoyed watching him play. He got so
into it, and I like seeing him enjoy himself. He
deserves it.

When Mitza and them got back from the club, we went
to Becca's. He said that he would sit with me for a
while. I changed clothes and laid down, and he kissed
me like he hasn't in a long time. It was just really nice.
Of course, we did our thing after that, which was
amazing, but it wasn't even the physical interaction
(however wonderful) that made last night so great. It
was just being alone with him, talking about whatever
came up, looking at him...just BEING.

He told me, as he was leaving, that I was the most
beautiful in the early morning because I just look
vulnerable...it's not my persona, it's just ME. He doesn't
realize how rare it is for someone to see just ME, not
any of the high heels and suits. I'm comfortable with
him though. I feel like I can let my guard down and it's
okay. Security is a nice thing to feel when you're with
someone. It's all so new to me though....

So, needless to say, I went to bed content. It was nice to
just go to sleep with happy thoughts swimming in my
head. Sometimes I feel like a giddy school girl. It's a
nice change of pace. I'm using the word "nice" entirely
too much! :)

Kris and I went to lunch today. She finally called me out
on me and J--the hickeys on my neck gave me away. I
told her that we had been dating for about 4 or 5
months. She said that she had picked up on it last
semester, but that Aaron convinced her that she was
wrong. J thought it was funny. We are good at being
discreet at work, which is good because it keeps us
away from a lot of conflict. :)

Anyhow...that's all for today. I'm hoping that I don't have
to work tomorrow. We'll see I guess. I just want to rest.
J is coming on Sunday for the game. Hopefully he'll
stay over. We'll see what happens.

Until later...




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