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Page's Online Journal
2002-01-28 17:41:32 (UTC)

Hospital: Suicide prevention

Please note that if you just surfed on in, this journal
will make absolutely no sence at all unless you first stop
by webpage and read up on DID/MPD.

Well, I'm on my way to the hospital to prevent suicide. I
am very bitter about this. It isn't because I am
suicidal. No. Once again it's Rae and Johannah. It isn't
fair that I should pay for other people's sins. Sigh.
Only my life.

I spent last night in the ER, trying to explain to EMTs
that I wasn't suicidal, but yes, my body might be killed by
itself. They practically refused to call me Page, and even
when they did it was humoring crazy Rachael, not realizing
that I was a seperate indevidual. Once again, sigh.

So it looks like this first entry will also be the only
entry for a little while. I will, however, keep a diary
while in the hospital if I am able, and post it upon my
return.

Good news (surprise!): Little Rachael may not be
intigrated soon after all. The flashbacks have slowed down
and her headaches have stopped. While this is bad for Rae,
it's great for me. I love the kid and would really miss
the stories. Another smile, it seams like Rae and I may be
finally developing coconsciousness! YAY! we never thought
it would happen but we've started sharing dreams and
blipping in on each others thoughts. I will write more
about this as things develope.

I guess that is all for about now, I'm on my way to st
mary's and the men in white coats. tata




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