faiien angei

a day in the life...
2002-01-28 04:26:30 (UTC)

a dramatic novel

HA HA HA HA! could this whole thing be any more funny?
after a year of being taken advantage of, manipulted, shit
on and degraded, ROXANNE HAS STUCK UP FOR HERSELF.

i met my breaking point. Life can only get better.

meet the demise of Roxanne and Tiffany's friendship:

Subj:
Date: 1/26/02 10:54:08 PM Pacific Standard Time
From: Mis WorId
To: When devils kiss


I'm not emailing you to fight, and i'm not emailing you to
say that i'm sorry. Obviously we havent been getting along
that great lately. I mention anything thats bothering me
and you get this huge attitude. I dont know why. But i was
looking and it started when joanne got back. Now dont get
all crazy thinking i'm blaming her, cause i'm not. You know
i love her and think shes great. But i've noticed that
whenever her and tracey are around you get very cockey and
bitchey. its not flattering on you. Well, what im emailing
you to say is that when your around them or have just been
i dont really want to hang out with you. Now dont think
that i'm saying that its me or them, cause i'm not saying
that at all. I'm just saying that if there is anyway of us
staying friends i cant be around you when your acting like
that. its just not going to work that way. so maybe we can
try this and we wont fight so much. If your not doing
anything tomorrow maybe you can take a break from you
reports and go get some coffee.. Just let me know

-Tiffany


Subj: Re:
Date: 1/27/02 5:18:47 AM Pacific Standard Time
From: When devils kiss
To: Mis WorId


No, you're right...i do get bitchy when i'm around Tracy
and Joanne and i know this. reason being...Tracy. I love
the girl, but i turn into a bitch when i'm around her and
i cant help it. you dont know her the way i know her so i
dont expect you to understand that...and that's fine.

and as for today, i was just really annoyed with you when
you pulled that whole "no one cares that something is
bothering me, no one even asked me what was wrong"
bullshit, when i clearly asked you about ten million times
today. Joanne was in the car when i asked you the first
time on the way from Top Fuel and it just makes me angry
that you turn it into a "roxanne is a bad friend" thing
when that's not even an issue. You say that i'm caught up
in this whole arthur thing, and maybe i am, but you're just
as caught up in your own problems that you refuse to
acknowledge the fact that anyone else is making an effort.
You need to stop taking out all of your frustration on me
because it's really not cool. I justify and justify and
justify your actions by knowing that there are things going
on in your world that you cant talk to me about and as a
result have all this bottled up frustration and anger, but
sometimes it's just insane. Last night for instance when
you thought that i was being a snotty bitch, you completely
overreacted. You asked me where i was going, i told you.
You asked me again, i told you. You asked me where i was
really going, and it just made me really frustrated that
you couldnt beleive something as miniscule as the fact that
i wanted to go smoke a cig in the front of the house
(something that really didnt matter...at all) that it
pissed me off and was subsequently displayed in my voice.
And when you told me i was being a snotty bitch, of course
i was going to have attitude about it because your whole
basis for confronation was beyond absurd.

There obviously is a lack on communication within our
friendship that is preventing it from fruition. This isnt
something that is done on just my end our your end...this
is something that is going on in the both of our ends. We
are both failing to speak aloud what bothers us and if this
continues to go on...it's not going to work.

I'm sure this e-mail pissed you off since i know that it
wasnt the response you were expecting, so if you want to
have coffee with me tomorrow and try to work things out,
you call me.

Subj: Re:
Date: 1/27/02 2:42:16 PM Pacific Standard Time
From: Mis WorId
To: When devils kiss


well, obviously if you thought my "no one cares that
something is botehring me, no one even asked me what was
wrong" was directed at you you were wrong. thats why i hung
up on you. I was callng about something totally different
that had just happened. But you think that EVERYTHING is
about you. Good or bad. You just assume. And really, you
didnt care... my dad could be dieing, and you flaked on
comming over and gettting me. What does that say about our
friendship? Not much huh? You say that i'm just as caught
up in my own problems? No. Other people seem to have time
for me, and i've made time for them... the only persons
problems i'm not interested in are yours. and not becasue i
think, well she doesnt have time for me, so i wont have
time for her, but because i have heard them twenty million
times and dont know what else to tell you about the
situation. dude, i dont take any of my frustration out on
you, and you need to quit thinking that. I called to talk
to you about something that my mother did and you threw the
hissy fit. I didnt want to deal with that so i hung up.
and as for the other night of you being a snotty bitch,
sweety, it didnt just have to do with you going to smoke.
The entire night you were acting like your shit didnt
stink. If you would have been me you would have done alot
more then just tell me how i was acting. But you know what?
Honestly? I'm not really sure if i even want to try to work
this out. We've been trying for the past few months, and
everytime you go around other people you get this huge
attitude towards me all over again. So whats the point?
Yeah, maybe it is tracey, but thats no excuse. I gues when
people told me "when roxanne gets around you she totally
picks up on your attitude and actions" that i should have
realized that you would do that when you got around other
people too. Dont bother emailing me. If you cant call i
dont want to hear from you.

Subj: Re:
Date: 1/27/02 4:48:57 PM Pacific Standard Time
From: When devils kiss
To: Mis WorId


ha ha ha this whole thing is just ridiculous. I'm not the
one sitting here thinking that my shit doesnt stink,
because obviously that's you. I can accept the fact that i
have faults and here i am trying to talk to you and work
things out, and the second that i voiced an opinion you got
defensive and thought that i was being a bitch.
When you called me last night, you didnt say anything about
your mom. I asked you what was wrong and you pulled that
whole "all i want to do is hang out and watch a movie and
no one will come over when they know that i've just had a
horrible day and no one cares or even bothered to ask what
was bothing me." how was i supposed to know that you wanted
to talk to me about something that just happened with your
mom? you must have picked up somewhere that i'm a mind
reader...which unfortunately i'm not.
And i didnt flake on you. I told you that i would come and
pick you up when my mom got home...my mom got home late and
at that point you had already expressed to me that you were
going to stay home. Your actions and your words are
contradictory...and then you have the audacity to get angry
with me?

If you dont want to hear about things that bother me, then
that's fine. If you honestly dont give fuck, then it
shouldnt bother you when i talk to someone else about my
problems and keep them from you...which you have done on
several occasions.

and really, i'm not the one that thinks everything revolves
around me. Everything is about you. Everything from what we
do when we hang out, to what i eat, to what i drink...and
if i dont want to do something that you tell me to do, what
do you do? you get mad. if something doesnt happen exactly
how you want it to happen, you freak out and start yelling.
You need to realize that friendship is co-exsistance, it
should be a 50/50 relationship and not revolve around one
person.

I'm not saying that i dont want to be your friend, i'm just
explaining how i feel and i dont think you vaule my opinion
at all. If you want to work this out and remain friends,
call me when you're able to have a decent conversation and
have an open mind to hear what i'm saying and where i'm
coming from.

for once, this time it's on you.





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