Wildthing1983

Me and More
2002-01-26 10:48:26 (UTC)

Fucking Shit

Dear Diary-

Well, once again I am up all night. The time now is 4:43am
CT. I have been sick for a while now. I just want the pain
to stop and for me to be able to lead a normal life. For
five fucking year this shit has been going on. And now I'm
stressed out waiting for my fucking test results. For you
that don't know, I am having sevear pain in all my joints,
I have pain in my pelvic area and my knee is throbing. I
had surgery five years ago to fix a bleeding cyst, and a
week after that they had to remove 60cc of puss from my
abdomen. Since then its been in and out of the hospital.
With my knee I injured it in a skating accident and I keep
tearing the cartialige. so that also is a problem.

Well, I am having a bunch of tests done to find out why I
am am having pain in my joints. I just found out that I
could have a virus in my system from the infection that is
now just affecting me. Oh goody! I am waiting for the bone
scan, x-ray, and blood tests to come back. I am so fucking
worried and stressed.
And home life is helping much either. I mean my dad just
having his leg amputated and my mom still coping is really
getting to me. Sometimes I want to give up. But I know I
can't. I just want to be normal. But I know that is never
going to happen.

Well, I don't feel like sharing anymore. So fuck yall that
don't care and Hi to all that do. Hi Michelle. I hope you
are doing well! I luv ya lots!

-Heather


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