Laura

Laura's Daily Journal
2002-01-26 03:24:36 (UTC)

January 25, 2002

The Connecticut Lottery inspired this entry. I came to
work today and I saw a new scratch-off ticket calld "Lucky
Hearts". It is $1 ticket and it has hearts all over it and
you have to get a heart to win. They came out just in time
for Valentine's Day I guess. Just looking at it made me
depressed. I have never had an actual valentine. Sure I
used to send out little cards and candy to all my
classmates in elementary school, who hasn't? Remember when
you had to send the right one for everyone in the class,
because you didn't want them to get the wrong idea, and you
would send that special someone the best one in the box?
You made sure you wrote their name perfectly because it had
to be just right. Sigh, elementary school love. Anyway,
the tickets just made me depressed because I want a
valentine this year. Even if it is just a friendly one. I
even requested that day off for work, just in case plans
came up. Pathetic huh? Love is so confusing. I thought I
was in love once, but it was just a trick I guess. When I
see that person, I still get that feeling in my stomach,
the blushing of the cheeks, the sweating of the palms, and
the unexplainable happiness and sadness at the same time.
Maybe it will never go away. Maybe it will. Only time can
tell I guess. I can't wait to find that one person who I
am destined to be with. I could already know him, maybe
I'm going to meet him tomorrow. Fate is cool like that,
but it can suck when you are just waiting around, like what
I'm doing now. I want that "friends for years" romance
where you were friends forever and then just one day, it
clicks and you realize that you were destined to be with
this person since the moment you met them. I thought I had
the perfect person in mind, but I guess I was wrong because
he didn't feel the same. That's the story of my life for
now I guess, until tomorrow...... ~*Laura*~
10:23pm
Song of the Day: "Blurry" by Puddle of Mudd




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