Faerie Onyx

Tis The Faerie
2002-01-26 02:58:15 (UTC)

I don't know what to do...

I really really like Michelle, and my friend Laurel has
already made it clear that she think's that I am hot, but I
know that it is either Michelle or my boyfriend, and I'm
really not sure if I'm willing to give up my relationship
with him for Michelle. I really don't know what to do. My
elated feeling has since faded into confusion and I feel a
true connection with Michelle. When I heard that she and
another girl did things together at a party, I became
enraged and jealous, and I still have no right to ge
jealous, she's not my girlfriend, and that was even before
I actually truly met Michelle. I'm so confused. I love my
boyfriend, and I love Michelle. I don't know if I could
keep it this way for much longer though. My body craves to
caress her soft skin again, and I kiss her sweet mouth, for
no kisses can compare with that one kiss I received from
Michelle. Not even a girl that I fooled around with, she
had a very special kiss that felt sooo good. No,
Michelle's kiss was much, much better than even that one.
I thought that the first kiss between my boyfriend and
myself would never be topped, but the only kiss between
myself and Michelle topped everything. I hope this feeling
isn't an infatuation. I want to hold on to this feeling
forever, but I'm horribly afraid that Michelle won't feel
the same way. What if she just thinks that I'm hot? What
if she just kissed me because I asked for it? She looks
like a dream, she is so perfect, and so beautiful. She is
the sexiest woman alive, and I want her so bad, I can't
stop thinking about her. Anyway, I'm kinda really sick
right now, it hurts for me to talk, but I don't think I
could stand to not talk. That didn't work. Michelle is
still on my mind. She continuously runs through my mind,
and I see her everywhere I go. I simply am infatuated with
her. I can't stop wondering if she feels the same way, or
if she is thinking about me too. I don't know what to do.
I can't even describe well the feelings that are welling up
inside me. This morning I got jealous when I saw Michelle
walking with my gay guy friend, Chris. I want to kiss her
again, and never stop kissing her beautiful lips. Right
now there is nothing more I would like than that. She has
everything I have ever wanted in a male or a female, and
she's just so ethereal that I don't want to let go of her.
It makes me so sad and depressed when I think that she's
not my girlfriend, and I really want her to be, but I can't
ask her. I'm just too much of a frickin pussy to ask her
anything. I wanted to ask her for her phone number today,
but when I saw her, I just froze up and all I could do was
watch her walk by, and look into her eyes. It was rapture,
heavenly ecstasy...

~Faerie Onyx




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