LisaCanada

My thoughts
2002-01-25 22:33:38 (UTC)

friends to lovers

Is it possible to go from friends to lovers? Can
you imagine having someone who's been a dear friend to you
for a few years become your lover? Have you ever wanted to
be with someone simply cause you care for them but there is
a slight chance your feelings are not returned? Do you sit
around and wait for them to decide what they want .........
or do you move on as not to chance a broken heart which
you've dealt with way too many times?
Love is a very powerful thing and it is not to be
taken lightly. But how do you cure that ache that has been
nagging at you for so long it threatens to consume your
entire being? And what becomes of you when you want
something so badly that if you cannot have it the worth of
your life seems to just slip away? It is very possible to
love someone so much that just the thought of them not
returning your feelings can be a devastating blow to your
ego and to your heart as well.
I am a lesbian and it takes someone very special to
cause my emotions to hurdle out of control ............ a
person who embodies much of what I've been searching for
all my life. She has been my very close friend for 2-3
years now and I've crushed on her a few times but it has
never gone any further then a good solid friendship and
abit of harmless flirting ......... until now. I have never
been willing to admit my feelings for her until just the
other day when I did tell her I cared about her very deeply
and that if I ever could have a relationship with her I'd
like one.
Part of me wants to wrap her up in a love that she
has never known before, one that will protect her and make
all of her wildest dreams comes true ........ but also part
of me is just as scared as I know she is. We have both been
through so much that even just the thought of something
serious could scare one or both of us away. But even if
nothing ever comes of us other then the friendship we
share, I'll never doubt for a moment that she was put into
my life for a reason and whatever that reason turns out to
be, I'm so glad I have her in my life.

One song comes to mind when I think of her and
though it is country (no idea if she even listens to that
kind of music), this chorus sings to me in a way no other
one does ........ just like she sings to me as no one else
every has *sighs* Here is the chorus:

"Good morning beautiful, how was your night? Mine was
wonderful, with you by my side and when I open my eyes and
see your sweet face it's a good morning beautiful day"

I close this entry of my diary by saying one simple
thing ......... My proposal is real and my feelings are
true, I hope I get to spend my life with you !!




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