psychomagnet

sleeptodreamher
2002-01-25 03:38:21 (UTC)

Virtue is relative at best.

AGHHH. Fucking. I thought I was done but Im not.

"I love you adrienne. dont think youre crazy and
be sad all the time."

STOP!!! STOP LOVING ME. NO GOOD COMES FROM IT TRUST ME.

stupid stupid boy. will never listen to me. ever. in
fucking 2 years now. being in love with me and i tell him
over and over stop it, its bad, it will get you nowhere. i
was guna bring you flowers but i didnt know if youd want
them. what. I DONT UNDERSTAND. no one listens. no one
gets it no one fucking gets it. i need to get out of
here. i need to get out of this fucking town all i want
right now is to be real fucked up. I need to stay away
from everyone. because i fucking suck. and i make myself so fucking
mad. because even if the day comes when i find
the perfect person. who understands me. and gets me. and
has shit in common with me. i will fuck them up. and just
like ashley, and matt, and richard, she is just going to be #4 that i
look back and say "Why the fuck did I fuck that up." AGH.