Str8 Girl, Interrupted
My Life is a Drama....
"ain't it crazy...."
So, the last entry started out on a very low note...this
one will no exception. Well, I got one good thing back in
my life (my car, how sad is that?) and lost another (my
boyfriend). Yah, he broke up with me in a lame ass email.
Something about how he "can't date" me. He didn't even
state a real why as to why he "can't date" me. Just a
bunch of shit about how there are "vital attachments"
missing. What the fuck does that mean? Does anyone know?
Cuz I sure as fuck don't. Oh, but I'm not bitter. I am
strong and I will prevail. I always do....I always find a
way to boucne back and that is one of my strongest points.
I can look a failure or loss right in the eye and smile
through my tears. I'm good at masking my feelings...now,
thinking about it...maybe that's not a strong point, but a
down-fall. Oh well...it makes me appear to be strong.
I would be lying if I said I wasn't hurt. I slept with
this boy, for god's sake. I'm not saying that I regret it,
cuz by all means...I DO NOT regret that. Not that it was
the greatest experience in my life...but I don't regret the
person I choose to be my first time. I'm just saying that
if I had to do it over again...I would. He's a really
sweet guy, but he has a lot of soul-searching to do to find
out what/who HE wants...not his parents and what other
people want for him. He'll NEVER find true happiness until
he does this. I'm not saying that I'm the best thing he
ever lost....cuz who knows that for sure? I'm just saying
he'll more than likey spend a good portion of his life just
looking for someone to please him AND everyone else. And
honestly...I don't think that's possible for anyone. He's
no exception. I wish him nothing but happiness.