Thought Criminal

A Brain I Can't Explain...
2002-01-23 08:03:47 (UTC)

too bad I have such tough windows...

I almost jumped out my window the other night. I was just pissed, just fucking pissed, and I was running at our full length window on the second floor as fast as I could, over and over again, just barely catching myself on the window frame everytime (I was listening to music at the time...and, well, a bad mood my music will really make me do some stupid things. Like one time I was with some friends, and I had a lighter and...well, i'll save that for another time...). I slipped and hit the window, but was able to stop myself just enough to keep the window from breaking. But for a second I thought I was going to go flying out the window...and it was great. Then the rest of the day, a scene kept playing over and over in my head. *Me, running at the window...everythings in slow motion, and it's black and white....and do a flying swandive out our window...and somewhere along the the way my neck gets sliced open...and I fall flat on the ground, spread out like christ...with blood flowing out of my neck...and I'm looking at this in an overhead view...and the only thing in color is the red blood...* Wow, that sounds sick when I actually said it. Oh well...I still think it would be beautiful. But if I was ever going to even think of jumping out a window, I'd make sure it was a really tall building. I mean, a second story apartment? c'mon now, i'm not that fucking stupid :)




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