thouhgts of Sam
2002-01-23 05:13:00 (UTC)

Ode to me..

Well, I just got off the phone, and I feel like I hate
myself for the way I am. I feel like I am turning into
something I dont want to be. (my father) I feel like I
deal with things they way he would and all the problems I
have I am the only one that sees them. I wish I could
share my feelings more I wish I didnt have to wait for
someone to ask me what is wrong with me. I dont know I
dont understand myself right now and maybe I shouldnt. I
really really dont know what is going on with me right
now. Am I trying to grow? If so where and when will I get
this over with. I feel so overwhelmed with all these
things, but they arent really important things I dont
really know what to do but what I do know is I'm tired and
I want to go to bed. My head hurts from all of this I dont
know where to turn.
Fuck it