xdruggie

The Xdruggie Files
2002-01-23 04:32:44 (UTC)

Bad Dreams?

I had a dream about a year ago that something was growing
under my skin on my hand. It got really big and nasty and
finally i took a knife and sliced my skin open and a live
frog came out. It's a transparent interpretation to know
that there was something growing inside of me that had to
be expunged. At the time i thought it was about a
relationship, but now i think it's more about the state of
the internal mind and spirit than about anything else. I
guess it does tie in with my addictive nature. I thought
about this after some really weird dreams i have been
having. In the first one i had sex with Anthony Rapp. I
have no idea where that comes from other than i haven't had
sex since sept (contract is up in march!). I also have been
having to face some of my past demons and had a dream
sunday night about meeting up with my x and his friends.
His group of friends in the dream though were people that i
used with in texas. the one i remember most is darla. in
the dream i was getting upset that these people hated me. i
dunno where that is coming from either. haven't had
thoughts of using. but the past demons could be bringing it
up. i haven't thought about random sex since sunday. i so
had to get out of a chat room before i hooked up with some
one though.

note to self make journal private so friends can't read it.

XD




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