AnGeLbAbiE

Cooties, HappyMeals, & One Size Fits All
2002-01-23 00:53:15 (UTC)

Ahh...The Single Life!

OK, I think I really am over him this time haha!! Its
nothing he did, I just don't get that FEELING anymore that
I still have something for him...that *question* just isn't
there...its just starting to set in what a jerk he is as
far as dating goes...its so weird, I never would have
expected him to do that, especially since he PROMISED me he
wouldn't, and he swore to Holly he wouldn't hurt me...he's
told me before on the phone that if he ever hurt me,
he'd "kill himself"...well its been 2 weeks and he's still
alive 'n kicken so...o well! hehe j/k...newayz, see, before
I was "over" him but still thinkin, "If I ever had the
chance, I'd get back with him in a heartbeat." but see,
now I don't think I would ya kno? Its hard to explain why
I would want to anyway, after what he did...but it just
felt so good to be in that relationship with him during
it...I REALLY was so in love with him, and that is the best
feeling...it wasn't just an infatuation or a "crush" or
nothin...I was in love with him...but now I don't think I
could get back together with him..things just wouldn't be
the same...and really, the time we spent at school together
was always really stressful for both of us, cuz Ashley was
always there and almost all our time together was spent
trying to sort out our problems...we were only really
really happy the first 3 days we were together (Friday and
the weekend) and the day before we broke up. Newayz...I
didn't talk to him today cuz he didn't say anything to me
in history and I saw him leaving after 3rd period, I guess
sick or something...but newayz...no more about that haha! I
am pretty happy single...I mean, yea I want a boyfriend,
but I'm not gonna go hunt me one down like some people I
know...it was really kinda sad, Heather brought pictures of
her "boyfriend" Paul today, who lives ACROSS THE COUNTRY
that she only saw for a WEEK and NEVER TALKS TO and he's
really hot...but I heard from Holly that she's turned down
some guy that was flirting with her that lives here because
she "has a boyfriend"...oh and she had told Paul it was OK
if he saw other people...umm...NO! I'm sorry, but Paul is
not her "boyfriend" haha...I wouldn't be turnin down the
local guys when I'm not gonna see my "boyfriend" that lives
like 1000 miles away until SUMMER omg! No! Haha...she's not
even "in love" with him...she's never really been "in love"
I don't think...it's cuz the only thing that matters to her
is looks!! I mean, yea you can find plenty of good looking
guys, but a lot of good lookin guys are jerks (as are a lot
of ugly guys haha but we don't worry too much about those
haha)...for some reason, a lot of really hot guys are
intimidating to me, so I usually like kinda...REGULAR
lookin guys u kno? They're not ugly at all, but they aren't
the hottest guy there is...until I get to really KNOW
them...then there could NEVER be anyone cuter than MY
boyfriend haha...its like their personality makes them more
attractive...Heather & probably Becca could never
understand that...if a guy isn't hot they think u're a
freak for liking them...newayz...it can go the other way
too...a guy could be very hot, but once u get to know him,
all of a sudden you see all these little things wrong with
him, even in how he looks and then u realize he's not as
hot as you thought...newayz, I better go...ttyl...bye...!
~*~Ashley~*~




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