Sporkster

my life and times
2002-01-22 21:59:22 (UTC)

life sucks

this week is the WORST week of my life. Yesturday i
wrecked my car. And today The worst thing. I lost any
chances with my dream girl, a BEST friend for 2 years
She means the world to me. she is the one that has meant
more to me in my life than anyone else i've ever known
including family. I can talk yto her about anything. I
have no one to blame but myself. I am to quiet and don't
show my emotions until its too late. I always end up
screwing everything up. why am i even trying? she told me
she was in love with me alot of different times. but never
gave me a shot. WHy? what is wrong with me? am i a
loser? She is my world. i always think about her. worry
about her. care about her. i just not good enough for
her. WHAT did i do wrong? god i love you Rachel I only
wanted the best for you. i did everything you asked of
me. I loveyou. Rachel. god i really love you.




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