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2002-01-21 14:44:39 (UTC)

bpd?

What is Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)?
A borderline writes:
"Being a borderline feels like eternal hell. Nothing less.
Pain, anger, confusion, hurt, never knowing how I'm gonna
feel from one minute to the next. Hurting because I hurt
those who I love. Feeling misunderstood. Analyzing
everything. Nothing gives me pleasure. Once in a great
while I will get "too happy" and then anxious because of
that. Then I self-medicate with alcohol. Then I physically
hurt myself. Then I feel guilty because of that. Shame.
Wanting to die but not being able to kill myself because
I'd feel too much guilt for those I'd hurt, and then
feeling angry about that so I cut myself or O.D. to make
all the feelings go away. Stress!"

wenn sich borderline so anfühlt, dann bin ich das wohl.