AngeL w/o WinGs

-=-My So Called Life-=-
2002-01-21 02:27:44 (UTC)

James::SaVe Me

ok, pretty regular weekend day. early bball practice 2morro
morning. it snowed saturday! it was great!!! and well it
was just really pretty. and i went to taryns bball game. me
and james were talking online at night, and then he called
me and we talked for awhile while i played video games, and
its just so cool that he is so easy to talk to.....like
there is no akward silences on the phone. i like that. and
its kinda a relief, since mine and joe's communication
seems to be cut short lately. its like i can never get in
touch w/ him, esp since him and eve r officially going out.
i forgot that boys acted like that wen they got
gfs....forgot their freinds and lost sight of their
priorities, atleast for the 1st month or so. well james
never did. he was always....well cool about it. ya ya i
keep going on about james, i know. i get my clear retainer
tomorrow=).

where has my joe gone? has he really deserted me??? left
me out on my own......second guessing our larger than life
friendship? if he only had a clue......
so it it totally horrible that i secretly wish deep down
that it didnt work out w/ him and his gf? just so i can get
my best friend back? wow i sound evil. well....the thing
is, wenenver i hope for that w/ him and some girl hes
seeing, my wish comes true, and he is all mine again. but
then a guy comes into my life and we start...and joe gets
sad and heart broken over and over again. the pain is
unavoidable and the situation relentless. and i wish he was
w/ a girl so that he couldnt say anything to make me feel
guilty. sooo......here it is...a viscious and maliscious
cycle of neverending grief.


maybe me and jerry will have another fling. i dunno i was
just thinking about that. he's hot, and he's cool, and he's
nice. he will graduate this year tho, its so sad. we have
been friends since my 8thgrade year. and everyone thought i
was so cool cuz i was this middle schooler w/ a sophomore
guy friend, a 16-yr old boy that actually took time out to
hangout with me and call me all the time not cuz we grew up
2gether(we didnt), but bc he thought i was a cool person,
and everyone was so psyched that a h.s. boy was crushing on
me. and then i was in relationships and then he was. and
then beginning of MY soph. year, wow it happened and wow i
wouldnt mind it happening again.

haha henry thinx i like him. D O R K

------why is marisa so cruel? cruel to be kind? i think
not....her intentions r not good. i mean, we were friends
w/ this girl for awhile and we were all like best friends,
and we dont really hangout w/ her as much as we used
to.....and marisa says she doesnt like her anymore, for NO
REASON at all and shes all like...ya i dont care, im not
even inviting her to my bday party. THATS HORRIBLE, the
girl still thinx marisa is one of her bffl. but even
so...marisa is my other half. i luv her to death.

phils girlfriend is such a loser. shes so obnoxious i want
to scream. and the weirdest part is that her and phil have
the same exact face...its CREEPY! well not much more to say
as of now...maybe later tho.

current ims:
IcYbOo29: i mean i can stand her but not for a long time
IcYbOo29: and she switched lunch tables
IcYbOo29: so when i see her i just feel like WHY DOESNT SHE
GET IT cause shes always like hey and coming to talk to me
and i;m like jsofsojfs
IcYbOo29: she just says really dumb things
SlamminShanen: she sits w/ erin n britt now, rite?
IcYbOo29: yea
IcYbOo29: me and jenn are moving to that table now too
prolly
SlamminShanen: y
IcYbOo29: b/c we cant stand leonora
IcYbOo29: we want to stab her with her makeup tools
SlamminShanen: haha
IcYbOo29: shes the most annoying conceited girl in the world
SlamminShanen: i still cant get over her BLACK lip liner
SlamminShanen: on like totaly pale lipstick
IcYbOo29: yea i saw that
SlamminShanen: isnt it horrible?
SlamminShanen: and its really thick
IcYbOo29: its like really dark brown i thjink
IcYbOo29: i think she has more sence then black liner but
it looks like it so if its is shes stupid

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