One fucked up Life

my mind is fucked
2002-01-20 15:54:36 (UTC)

Drug free or druggy????

Well, I have alot of decisions I need to make in the next
few days.....Am i going to start using or am I going to
stay clean....So far I am trying my hardest to stay
clean....but I remember how much fun it was when i was
always fucked up....I dunno....Maybe I'm being
selfish...yeah, I am being selfish....I put my rents
through hell, and here I am clean talkin bout maybe i'll
start usin again.....damn...whats wrong with me....I
dunno..Fuck that...imah try and stay
clean.....ok......thats my final answer....hahaha....yeah
anyways...its sunday and i just woke up....its day number 9
since being out...ITS GREAT....oh my god...i never new what
I had until it was taken away for so long....I am going
back to school the 28th.....I'm mad nervous....I'm
sayi....what the fuck is that gonna be like?!?! WHAT?!
me in school again??? shit....thats gonna be off the
hook....wel, we'll see....i still got some days to just
chill....I applied for a job yesterday...that would be good
to get a job.....imah go get my permit tomorrow...then i
just gotta start drivers ed. and get my
lisence....WOOHOO!!! It finally seems to be that my life is
getting back on track...maybe lock up i what i
needed...damn....
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