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2002-01-20 05:44:44 (UTC)


I cant stand how much she bothers me, im forced to decide
whether I realy want her to be out of my life. I feel like
I can deal with everything better, but that doesnt mean it
still dosent hurt. It hurts every day, the pain doesnt get
better, it stays or gets worse. I wish the journal before
this would have saved, but it didnt, and that makes me mad,
cause I needed it. My mind doesnt empty its so full I wish
I could scream, I need tiem to myself, I need to reflect,
and I dont need to have her hear, I know that the girl I
loved is not comming back, and that hurts the most