luvbug

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2002-01-18 17:46:43 (UTC)

tip tap tip tap went the fuckin computer

i so do not feel like myself today. i am tired and
stressed! everyone around me is annoying me with the
questions that they ask...people who always want things
from you can annoy the hell out of you!
chris tucker came to my school today. he is gorgeous! he
spoke about dreams and ambitions. i like him alot! :0) when
i first saw him my body became alive with tingles and i
blushed all over but the more that i watched him and
listened to him speak the more human he became to me. i saw
him still as a beautiful indiviual, but he was not as high
as i held him. you get me?
i am soooo stressed! it is starting to effect me
physically. my moods are becoming shot and i haven't gotten
my period in FOUR MONTHS!!!! i know that i am not pregnant
b/c yours truly is still a virgin, but when i get under
high stress my period takes little vacations. :0) lol
everything is stressing me from schoolwork and people, to
my innerpersonal relationships. like i'm still trying to act
myself around david. i told him recently that he used to
intemindate (dude, i bogusly misspelled that! hee-hee) me.
i didn't really get the reponse that i wanted, but as long
as he knows the effect that he had on me and the effect that he still
somewhat does have on me. today is his 19th birthday. i am going to
bake him or buy him a little muffin, stick a candle in it,
buy him a card and wish him a happy birthday.
my friends think that i am ridicolous because for the
last two years he has not showed up for my birthday. the
first time he claimed that he forgot (i believed him). this
year, he told me that he had to go to nebraska with his
mother ( i believed him again). you know what though? i
don't care if some of my friends think that it is
ridicolous that i do what i do when it comes to him. hell,
it's my relationship right? yeah so i am getting stressed,
but it is strictly on my behalf, whatever i do is going to
be because i want to!!! i will take into consideration what
they say but i will inevitably do what i want to. (i just thought
about
what i said and that sounded really bitchy!! but hey take
it as you will.)

-michelle :0)


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