miss mess
midlife implosions
2019
- August 2019
- 01 - a place to reveal without ..
- September 2019
- 26 - hello. my name is ..
- 27 - pain is a word that doesn't ..
- 30 - being turned inside out
- October 2019
- 01 - collisions into hard, ..
- 02 - the rest of... being turned ..
- 03 - the sex of it all
- 04 - cam's dark places
- 04 - the first "ending"
- 05 - crash and burn
- 07 - when all is said and done...
- 07 - IN MY PRESENT...
- 08 - down and out
- 09 - the limp back towards each ..
- 14 - stirring the pot
- 15 - afraid to jump
- 17 - dreams don't always die, ..
- 21 - the last time
- 22 - on his birthday
- 26 - breaking a habit
- 28 - so fucked up
- 28 - so...so...tired
- 29 - just tuesday thoughts
- November 2019
- 01 - erasing needed filters with ..
- 04 - "alone"
- 05 - like a tornado warning
- 10 - maybe somewhere up the road?
- 12 - when the self hate bubbles ..
- 17 - letter to cam
- 18 - what am i?
- 21 - purging
- 25 - lost and unsure
- December 2019
- 10 - 15 days since i last wrote
- 19 - just like that...
2020
- March 2020
- 30 - another precious stolen ..
- May 2020
- 12 - lying in a pool of my own ..
- 16 - i may never be SEEN again
- 18 - seeing your own pain in ..
- 21 - some just me "stuff"
- 25 - never ending winds of change
- June 2020
- 01 - here and now...for better ..
- August 2020
- 13 - struggling after having ..
- 15 - finding new normals after ..
- 15 - corona virus...sometimes ..
2021
- September 2021
- 11 - so many recoveries
- 13 - breathing under water
- 15 - Sigh...
- 15 - #1 of 52
- 16 - filling in some missing time
- 17 - About #1 of 52
- 17 - i hate dreaming
- 18 - ijust wanna say....
- 18 - WORDS
- 20 - Seasons
- 20 - #2 of 52
- 21 - Set back, today
- 22 - I deleted it
- 23 - is this letting go?
- 25 - alot of nothing to say
- 28 - all kinds of bumps
- 30 - She...and me
- 30 - #3 of 52
- October 2021
- 05 - Too much for words
- 07 - Batten down the hatches
- 08 - PIGPEN from the peanuts
- 14 - No escape
- 14 - houses
- 17 - The weight of my messes
- 19 - our tango
- 22 - Happy birthday cam
- 25 - his words
- November 2021
- 16 - just things at the moment
- 17 - can't outrun the truth
- 19 - tentacles
- December 2021
- 30 - progress
2022
- January 2022
- 03 - new year, new me
- 04 - where to start
- 10 - the talk and a poem
- 10 - fantasy vs. reality
- 12 - how things flip flop
- 18 - stepping out of my box
- 21 - success AND fail?
- 22 - cracked the ice
- March 2022
- 07 - topsy turvy
- 07 - beautiful torture
- 10 - unlit fires
- June 2022
- 27 - never over with cam
- 28 - my turn
- 28 - seeds and roots
- July 2022
- 01 - quit for the second time
- 02 - upcoming changes
- 03 - i wish
- 05 - wreckless love
- 08 - getting the show on the road
- 09 - caught
- 10 - just a poem...teetering
- 10 - a poem, and some today ..
- 12 - a job
- 14 - growing pains
- 17 - down to the wire
- 19 - balancing emotional scales
- 22 - petition for dissolution of ..
- 24 - the other me? the real me?
- 29 - sweetest cherry on top
- August 2022
- 01 - bold and freaky
- 07 - continuing forward
- 13 - another week of steps ..
- 14 - the fall into love should ..
- September 2022
- 04 - the final countdown
- 08 - he's gone
- 11 - alone
- 18 - a realization
- 22 - a date
- 24 - a first date years in the ..
- October 2022
- 11 - the dreaded darkness