thea
the semi-secret life of thea
2003
- March 2003
- 10 - First entry, my semi-secret ..
- 11 - so freaking stupid
- 12 - Tuesday
- 12 - wow
- 13 - a work in progress
- 13 - thursday
- 13 - gah
- 13 - third entry today, whoop
- 15 - Yep, friday night
- 16 - ummm entry?
- 16 - gaaah
- 16 - repeating myself
- 16 - ahhh to be filled with the ..
- 16 - uh oh...
- 17 - a good day?
- 18 - why oh why...
- 18 - wow
- 18 - writing again...
- 19 - is this going to work?
- 20 - weird
- 20 - is this a good thing?
- 20 - whoosh
- 21 - why can't i do it?
- 21 - i need someone to be there
- 21 - same entry, continued
- 21 - i can't stand it
- 21 - last time today?
- 22 - whoosh?
- 22 - unwhoosh?
- 22 - i just don't want to do it ..
- 22 - just an after thought
- 23 - too much
- 23 - why oh why part II
- 24 - eeep
- 24 - just an after thought i ..
- 25 - silly me
- 25 - so addicted
- 25 - blah blah blah
- 26 - eee
- 26 - last night
- 27 - back to day 0
- 27 - holy crap
- 27 - feelin kinda sick
- 27 - back again
- 28 - cutty cut cut cut
- 28 - last time today, i swear
- 28 - errrr friday
- 29 - holy freaking crap
- 29 - hmmmm
- 29 - depression
- 29 - to tell or not to tell
- 30 - fucking throwing up
- 30 - aren't they great?
- 30 - i was going to, but i didn't
- 31 - nothing seems to bring me ..
- April 2003
- 01 - *shrug*
- 02 - weird dream
- 02 - nada mucho
- 03 - ugh
- 03 - good news to help me get ..
- 04 - day 0 again, yippee
- 05 - *sigh* longing to cut
- 05 - yay
- 06 - argh
- 06 - hmmm
- 07 - silly mood swings
- 07 - [clever title]
- 07 - a cutting related day
- 07 - survey thingy
- 07 - survey thingy continued...
- 08 - silly me
- 08 - need a distraction
- 09 - i really need to make ..
- 09 - ah well
- 09 - err, i don't have a good ..
- 10 - errr
- 10 - damn it all
- 10 - blood on my bedsheets...
- 10 - owie
- 10 - nice little poem if you're ..
- 11 - well, i made it one day...
- 11 - entry for yesterday
- 11 - the big promise...
- 12 - i really wanted to tell ..
- 12 - so far so good
- 12 - so my dad is curious
- 13 - last time tonight
- 13 - getting a bit out of hand
- 13 - entry of little importance
- 13 - so i tried it again
- 14 - last entry today? hmm
- 14 - gosh darn it
- 14 - an ok day
- 15 - food issue
- 15 - how strong am i
- 15 - so suicidal...eck
- 15 - si is a bitch
- 15 - i wish that...
- 16 - bruises and thea wars
- 16 - the unknown realm of ..
- 16 - first step
- 16 - ow
- 17 - want to cut...again...go ..
- 17 - Again *sigh*
- 19 - So it's finally been done
- 19 - gone...
- 19 - prayers
- 19 - scary dream...
- 19 - thinking...
- 20 - last entry today?
- 20 - Struggles and trials
- 20 - thinking about anorexia so ..
- 20 - FUCK the next step
- 21 - Does it count...
- 21 - Another crap day
- 23 - Today was errr...?
- 23 - bad days and new books
- 24 - long discussion
- 24 - *shrug*
- 24 - the road not taken...
- 24 - damn it
- 25 - feel better you
- 25 - oh my lord
- 26 - Secret thea wins again
- 26 - I hate
- 27 - During Mame..
- 27 - whoosh? huh?
- 28 - on the road to recovery, go ..
- 29 - oh i hope...
- 29 - So last night something ..
- 30 - "Life"
- 30 - take my shirt off? What?
- May 2003
- 01 - relapse...
- 01 - quote...
- 01 - regressing...
- 02 - cutty cut cut...part two...
- 03 - another friend kinda knows
- 03 - oh dear...yellow skin...
- 04 - fucking eat eat eat
- 04 - " then you're as good as ..
- 04 - yay, maybe not
- 04 - boredom is stupid
- 04 - for everything else, ..
- 04 - another quote
- 05 - it says i made six entries ..
- 05 - if she weren't so stupid...
- 05 - the perfect weight
- 06 - my mommy saw...
- 06 - entry to m'deary
- 07 - well...er...
- 07 - more yellow skin, but ..
- 08 - i'm never going to get ..
- 09 - i had something to say, ..
- 09 - well THAT didn't go as ..
- 10 - i don't know how i feel argh
- 11 - *sigh* i'm lonely
- 11 - i'm sad
- 12 - whoa, the longest feedback ..
- 13 - more feedback! oi oi oi!
- 13 - damn english class
- 13 - well here we go again...
- 14 - "the shit that is people"
- 14 - god damn it
- 16 - stop it veins! gahhh!
- 16 - things have been good i ..
- 17 - ignore my last entry
- 17 - last night=major suckage
- 18 - am i doing better? i think ..
- 19 - GRRR! I HATE YOU!
- 20 - so much FAT
- 20 - if i had made today...
- 21 - so i slipped up,
- 21 - food thing going funny....
- 22 - yesterday
- 24 - moments that should have ..
- 24 - is it sick and twisted...
- 25 - today was sucky
- 26 - memorial day weekend-the ..
- 27 - yay
- 28 - weird walk and bye bye loony
- 28 - today=minimul food ..
- 28 - book
- 29 - slice n dice baby
- 29 - last night and ..
- 30 - nothing really to write ..
- 31 - so far so good *blink*
- 31 - ah shit
- June 2003
- 01 - oh gosh
- 01 - i feel like cutting
- 01 - well
- 01 - last entry today?
- 01 - so i lied
- 02 - god damn it
- 02 - oh just fuck off, will ya?
- 03 - so, since my weight went ..
- 04 - GOD DAMN IT
- 05 - [insert title here]
- 06 - gah
- 06 - blechhhhh
- 07 - EAT EAT EAT
- 07 - pro ana sites
- 08 - slumber party
- 08 - *crosses fingers*
- 09 - which is better?
- 09 - sooo
- 10 - gah
- 10 - today=suck and interesting ..
- 11 - eat eat EAT
- 11 - [title]
- 12 - last night and today
- 13 - things about anoretics
- 13 - i fuck everything up
- 15 - emaciated
- 15 - so I threw up again
- 16 - lalala
- 17 - WHEEE
- 18 - obsessed with scales...
- 19 - A Quitter
- 19 - damn scale
- 20 - laxatives?
- 20 - changed my mind
- 21 - i didn't purge
- 22 - Please pray
- 23 - shortsleeves, ahhh, AHHH
- 24 - day 23
- 24 - i do not have an eating ..
- 24 - so i've been reading a lot
- 25 - binge
- 25 - oh yeah
- 27 - well i WAS doing good
- 28 - boating trip
- 28 - 117
- 29 - dear me
- 29 - still 117
- 30 - i'm stupid
- 30 - Realizations
- July 2003
- 01 - is this going to work?
- 01 - diary is FUCKED UP
- 02 - it breaks my heart
- 03 - my diary hasn't been ..
- 03 - [copied from my regular ..
- 03 - Did God speak to me?
- 04 - "oh my god!....
- 04 - can i cut?
- 05 - My parents found out
- 05 - the whole story
- 07 - i HATE this holiday!
- 08 - cutting discussion
- 08 - THEY TOOK MY FUCKING SCALES!
- 09 - so many people know
- 09 - 118.2
- 11 - last night sucked
- 11 - 21 aspirin
- 11 - oh my god
- 12 - suddenly defensive
- 12 - When you think you're ..
- 14 - 44 days, no SI
- 15 - fuck
- 16 - my dad
- 18 - Day 48
- August 2003
- 06 - So, I'm back
- 06 - 7-27-03
- 06 - 7-28-03
- 07 - 7-31-03
- 07 - 8-1-03
- 07 - all done kids
- 07 - someone else knows
- 09 - God is amazing.
- 09 - as of late,
- 10 - ok, listen.
- 10 - JOSH IS COMING JOSH IS ..
- 11 - i feel like
- 13 - *sigh*
- 14 - the littlest things
- 14 - according to
- 16 - dragging a blade
- 17 - where the FUCK is he?
- 20 - damn it
- 21 - yeah, i threw up
- 24 - I got feedbacks
- 24 - I have been
- 24 - gingerbread coffin
- 24 - cutting
- 24 - i have never
- 24 - so i lied
- 25 - i've already had...
- 26 - So Britta knows too...
- 27 - i cut myself
- 28 - i know this isn't very ..
- September 2003
- 01 - "i'm sorry
- 03 - 5 lbs in 2 days!
- 04 - fuck school
- 04 - forgot to mention this
- 05 - oh fuck
- 05 - Day one
- 06 - yeah, errr
- 06 - I was going
- 06 - i can't even
- 07 - i cut
- 10 - frustrating
- 12 - vomiting
- 13 - yeah, hi
- 15 - aww, flattery
- 16 - happy, but not.
- 20 - beautiful
- 22 - oh phooey
- 24 - well, this is new
- 29 - I'm fucked up
- 29 - blue-ish nails
- October 2003
- 03 - Modeling
- 05 - my moods
- 07 - ausable chasm
- 07 - i've changed, a lot
- 10 - i m sorry. I m a terrible..
- 10 - i was in a terrible mood
- 12 - 116
- 14 - why does it hurt?
- 16 - health class
- 16 - anorexic girl
- 18 - i'm not well
- 19 - chilled to the bone
- 19 - ....
- 22 - kids piss me off
- 22 - oh, by the way
- 22 - Fasting and all that jazz
- 24 - i must have
- 24 - emotional wreck
- 27 - random quotes
- 28 - my mother
- 29 - 115 still
- 31 - i love feedback
- November 2003
- 04 - oh my gosh
- 04 - The scent of SI
- 07 - lots to say
- 07 - just an after thought
- 09 - mom is paranoid
- 10 - "intensive case"
- 11 - Worried
- 12 - modeling thing
- 13 - the physical
- 13 - the physical, part II
- 14 - wouldn't it be loverly
- 16 - kim is weird
- 17 - i never get
- 18 - i'm such an ASS, aren't i?
- 18 - today's food includes:
- 19 - i am willing to admit
- 22 - i know that
- 24 - i have
- 24 - zee shrink
- 25 - i, errr, cut
- 25 - last entry, i promise
- 26 - surprising amount
- 27 - i feel like crying
- 28 - i really just
- 29 - last night
- 29 - AHHHHH
- December 2003
- 07 - degrassi
- 07 - my bones
- 09 - secrets kept to myself
- 09 - i thought she was better
- 10 - well, this sucks
- 10 - i'm numb
- 11 - so, yesterday
- 12 - it's baaack
- 15 - listen folks
- 16 - therapy tonight
- 17 - 114.
- 17 - Dear kara,
- 18 - 113
- 19 - it seems that i have
- 20 - not getting better
- 22 - what the FUCK
- 23 - Well,
- 24 - well, THAT sucked
- 26 - copied from lj
- 26 - so
- 30 - long weekend and losing my ..
- 31 - i've decided
2004
- January 2004
- 04 - why not tell
- 06 - anti-depressants
- 08 - stuff
- 12 - i have jealousy issues
- 12 - fat
- 13 - getting help?
- 14 - Sorry for
- 15 - today at work
- 15 - i'd like to apologize
- 18 - pills
- 18 - I ve changed my..
- 18 - just so you know
- 21 - well
- 22 - fall out
- 24 - i really don t have ..
- 24 - BMI
- 25 - Know what really pisses me ..
- 27 - i fail
- February 2004
- 01 - i cut today
- 08 - sorry
- 10 - oh gosh
- 10 - "there comes a ..
- 10 - "audrey hepburn"--written ..
- 10 - feb 3--no title
- 10 - no title--feb 6th
- 10 - "ok"----feb 7th
- 10 - feb 7th
- 10 - "whoops"---feb 7th
- 10 - "a list of things"---feb 7
- 10 - feb 8th
- 10 - feb 9th (last one!) "last ..
- 16 - entry from a few days ago
- 16 - day 3
- 16 - Binge Eating Disorder
- 16 - [Feb. 15th, 2004|11:16 pm] ..
- 25 - GOD!FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK...
- 25 - from a couple days ago:
- 25 - also from a couple days ago:
- 25 - ALSO from a couple days ago:
- 26 - Lent
- 27 - yay i think
- March 2004
- 12 - massive updating
- 12 - 2/27
- 12 - 2/29
- 12 - 2/29 later
- 12 - 2/29 later later
- 12 - 2/29 later later later
- 12 - 2/29 laterx4
- 12 - 3/2
- 12 - 3/3
- 12 - 3/4
- 12 - 3/5
- 12 - 3/8
- 12 - 3/8 later
- 12 - 3/8 later later
- 12 - 3/9
- 13 - wow
- 16 - So
- 22 - OH MY GOD
- 22 - awww
- 22 - insomniac
- 22 - fasting today...
- 28 - i think that
- April 2004
- 06 - ok, wow
- August 2004
- 07 - I'm not dead.