LustingforNightmares
tumbleweed
2012
- November 2012
- 21 - It's All Over
- 21 - Lonely
- 22 - Maybe I Should Sleep
- 22 - Thanksgiving
- 23 - Marina
- 23 - Port
- 24 - Black Friday
- 24 - Caroline
- 24 - Binge/Purge
- 24 - Old Entries
- 24 - Lydia
- 25 - Scream
- 25 - Lies
- 25 - Cut
- 27 - Bah
- 27 - Daytime
- 27 - Monster
- 28 - American Horror Story
- 28 - I Lied
- 28 - Sorry
- 29 - Letter
- 29 - Offended
- 30 - Rumors
- 30 - Sexuality
- 30 - [Insert Clever Title Here]
- December 2012
- 01 - Snow
- 01 - Nevermind
- 01 - Why
- 01 - Tsk Tsk Tsk
- 02 - Confidence
- 03 - Ruined
- 03 - This Is Necessary
- 03 - Insane
- 03 - January 10.
- 04 - Ethan
- 04 - Cigarette Smoke.
- 04 - Kind-of Overdosing
- 05 - Surrounded
- 05 - Guidance.
- 06 - Dead.
- 06 - Missing
- 06 - Cry
- 07 - Nothing
- 07 - Crazy
- 07 - asdfghjkl;
- 08 - Why don't they have Pink ..
- 09 - Dread
- 09 - I Don't Know What I Want
- 10 - You Are Not My Friend
- 10 - Why do I feel like I am..
- 10 - Things I Am Afraid Of
- 11 - Fair
- 11 - Ugh
- 12 - Last Entry
- 15 - Alone
- 18 - Bitterness
- 19 - Swirls
- 19 - Intensely Suicidal, but ..
- 20 - My Extensive Vocabulary
- 20 - Daxton
- 20 - Kill Self
- 22 - Stop
- 22 - 11:00 AM Saturday "The..
- 22 - Indecisive
- 22 - Ew
- 23 - Fighting
- 23 - Aaron's House
- 23 - Gone
- 24 - Dreams
- 24 - Jogging and Eating
- 24 - Moments
- 25 - I'm Dead To Myself
- 25 - What The Fuck?
- 26 - Someone Else
- 26 - 11:09 AM "Your New Twin..
- 26 - Push
- 26 - Don't Play With Knives
- 28 - Misguided
- 29 - December 29, 2012 Saturday..
- 29 - Chase Away The Darkness
- 29 - Oh, Fuck Titles
- 30 - Absolutely Nothing
- 30 - You Know Too Much
- 30 - :(
- 31 - PleaseIgnoreThis Move On ..
2013
- January 2013
- 01 - Self Destruct
- 02 - Taste Of Cigarettes
- 02 - Aaron
- 03 - Can I See Your Arm?
- 04 - What Is Real Life?
- 05 - Craziness
- 07 - Crush
- 08 - The Things I Do To Myself
- 09 - Excited and Nervous
- 09 - Normality
- 11 - Something About Everything
- 13 - Unstability
- 13 - A Study Of Destruction
- 13 - Not One
- 14 - Calm Before The Storm
- 16 - Such A Waste
- 17 - Heavy
- 18 - Freak Outs
- 18 - Once Upon A Time
- 19 - Childish
- 20 - Healthy, For Once
- 21 - Quick, don't tell lily that ..
- 21 - Test
- 24 - I am a human lump
- 26 - Hiccups Cure
- 26 - This Is Wierd
- 26 - Words
- 27 - Real
- 28 - Waiting
- 31 - Home
- February 2013
- 03 - Flaws
- 05 - Am i supposed to be doing..
- 08 - Fucking Memories
- 09 - No Cutting
- 16 - "Obsessions" by Marina & ..
- 18 - nonononononononononononon..
- 19 - I don't know how else to..
- 22 - you know who you are, but ..
- 26 - What You Know
- March 2013
- 01 - "Beaten Down" by The..
- 02 - WHy
- 02 - Anew
- 05 - I Thought Maybe...
- 10 - I finished the project I..
- 10 - To-Do List
- 11 - Fuck You
- 14 - I Think I Saw You In My ..
- 16 - So Much For That
- 19 - fire
- 21 - Something
- 22 - Dreams
- 29 - A Regular Kind Of Sad
- April 2013
- 01 - Taste The Sickness
- July 2013
- 23 - Let Me Go
- August 2013
- 20 - I'm Sorry
- September 2013
- 03 - Here I Am, Proud
- 22 - Fatty Fat Fat Fat McFatness
- 22 - Why Can't I See It?
- 23 - Getting Nowhere
- 24 - Beyond Repair
- 27 - I LOVE FOOD
- October 2013
- 04 - Memories Rush To Shore
- 05 - Sweet Caroline
- 05 - Queen
- 06 - I Can Fly
- 06 - My Fault
- 06 - My Mind Is Full Today
- 07 - Darkness
- 07 - Sneaking Suspicions!!!
- 09 - Beard Stroking
- 10 - NOPE I HATE MYSELF
- 11 - Can't Control It
- 12 - Pft, problems? What ..
- 13 - I'm doomed?
- 13 - THE LOVE IN PHILOVESOPHY
- 18 - Dad Has Cancer
- 18 - Cancer? Cancer.
- 19 - Tartarus (the hellest part ..
- 20 - Tracking My Moods
- 26 - I Am Overthinking EVERYTHING
- 27 - To The Hospital
- 27 - More Bipolar
- 28 - Schizophrenics and Food
- 29 - So. Much. Anxiety. (and ..
- November 2013
- 01 - This Is Not Happening
- 02 - Calm Before The Storm
- 08 - Tangled Ball of Stringy ..
- 09 - Nightmares In Real Life
- 26 - Another List
- 26 - I Plan To Accidently Kill It
- 27 - Sad Ramblings
- December 2013
- 01 - Despite Empty Smiles
- 14 - Waking Into The Past
- 30 - I'm BAAaack
- 30 - Beautiful
2014
- January 2014
- 15 - I Want One!!!
- 19 - Oddly Happy
- 24 - Quantum Suicide
- 31 - Awkward As Fuck
- February 2014
- 07 - Panic Attack
- 12 - UNFUCKINGTITLED
- 12 - Ick, Vulnerable
- 12 - Blood in the Breeze
- 13 - Death, Anyone?
- 15 - What Is Your Childhood ..
- March 2014
- 03 - Anxiety Tree
- 09 - Coming Down
- 22 - Nightmares In Real Life 2: ..
- April 2014
- 12 - Minecraft and Other Things ..
- 19 - Oh Look It's A Week Later ..
- 19 - PART TWO - oh week later ..
- 20 - Yet Another Nightmare
- 22 - Dreamy Dreams
- May 2014
- 03 - Paranoid Thoughts
- 15 - All That Sunshine
- 19 - Conversations With Myself, ..
- 19 - Conversations With Myself, ..
- 20 - It's Kind of a Long Story
- 21 - Happy In A Sad Way
- 22 - Oh, Look, I'm On Fire
- 28 - Emocean
- 30 - I Lost Myself
- June 2014
- 01 - Social Life
- 06 - What Is This Feeling?
- 06 - I Never Want To Grow Up
- 10 - Opening Up
- 11 - My Hospital Stay (April ..
- 18 - Here Comes The Storm
- 18 - SOME OLD ENTRIES
- 18 - Bleeding
- 20 - I'm Fucked
- 20 - Un-Breathtaking
- 21 - Return of the Depression!!!
- 22 - Unheard
- 23 - So Cold, So Sweet
- 23 - Had (Happy-Sad)
- 24 - Washed Walls
- 25 - Being Stupid
- 26 - Do it
- 26 - Asexual
- 26 - Sad Silence
- 27 - I'm A Mess
- 28 - How Do I Feel Now?
- 29 - Scars Talk To Me
- 29 - Jerk
- 30 - The Sun Rose
- 30 - Bipolar Disorder
- July 2014
- 02 - I Tried
- 05 - Duller Than Something Dull
- 07 - A Small Mistake
- 09 - Decisions, Decisions
- 26 - Deleted
- 29 - I've Been Trying To Sleep
- 29 - Lost Dreams
- 31 - Hey, I'm Sad
- 31 - Cheese
- August 2014
- 01 - Drowning
- 01 - FUCK YOU, BRAIN CHEMISTRY
- 01 - God Forgive My Tasteless ..
- 03 - Everything Nice
- 11 - I Am Okay
- 15 - Paranoia Invades North ..
- 16 - It's Not Over
- 16 - List Of Love
- 18 - Music List
- 20 - Thinking (A Lot)
- 20 - Friends and Stuff
- 24 - Fishies In The Sea
- 25 - Hate/Love
- 25 - Lily's Myth
- 28 - 12:36 AM why did I never..
- 28 - Losing Again
- 30 - Quiet
- 31 - Spaceman
- September 2014
- 01 - Sedated
- 02 - Why I'm Alone
- 05 - School
- 05 - A Long Year
- 06 - Aware
- 07 - Empty Skies
- 08 - Positive Steps
- 09 - School Ramblings
- 09 - Teen Stuff
- 10 - Sicky
- 11 - Sad Dreams
- 11 - Leaving
- 12 - I'm really sick. I was ..
- 12 - I'm really sick. I was ..
- 12 - Subjects
- 12 - Sexy List
- 13 - Peace
- 13 - General Anxiety Disorder
- 14 - Pulp
- 15 - I'm Pissed Off
- 15 - My Session
- 16 - ????????
- 16 - "For Reasons..
- 17 - Return Of The Satirical ..
- 18 - OF FUCKING COURSE
- 19 - FINALLY!
- 19 - Part Of The Problem
- 22 - Exhausted
- 22 - Things Are Slightly Better
- 22 - Sharing!!!
- 23 - What
- 23 - Racism And Whatnot
- 24 - Take Note
- 25 - Mind Reading
- 26 - Am I or the Others Crazy?
- 27 - Who Cares
- 27 - The Mist
- 28 - Adaptations of a Teenage ..
- 29 - Pathetic
- 29 - Moonrise Kingdom
- October 2014
- 01 - Blargh
- 01 - This is a Title
- 03 - Picasso
- 04 - Emotions Suck
- 04 - Crazy Things
- 06 - Blocked
- 08 - Lamictol? More like ..
- 10 - Soap Opera
- 10 - Softness
- 11 - SMALL POT
- 12 - Pretty Little Head
- 13 - Spontaneous Combustion
- 14 - Forgot
- 16 - Fever
- 18 - A Strange Situation
- 21 - The Glow Clouds
- 21 - Shouting Into The Void
- 23 - Peripheral People
- 25 - A Long Apology
- 25 - Wily
- 25 - Dear Erica
- 26 - I MISS THE HELL OUTTA YOU
- 26 - What's The Sound Of One ..
- 27 - Dorian
- 27 - QUICK NOTE
- 27 - So.
- 29 - Aaron Pisses Me Off
- 29 - Calming Things
- 30 - Titles Are Too Hard
- 30 - ''What's New?''
- 31 - Ghosts
- November 2014
- 01 - Halloweeeeen
- 01 - Oblivion
- 03 - Vivid ''Nightmares''
- 03 - Welcome To Night Vale - ..
- 04 - Dreams
- 05 - BLUE EYES
- 05 - Trust
- 06 - PEOPLE!!!!
- 06 - Maybe.
- 07 - Never-Ending Sigh
- 07 - I'M NERVOUS
- 08 - Narcissism
- 10 - This Has No Plot
- 11 - Veins
- 11 - Vegetarianism
- 11 - List Of Appreciation
- 12 - Unusual
- 13 - Images
- 14 - Wine Red
- 15 - CLOUDS
- 15 - Breezeblocks
- 16 - Clean
- 19 - HEY, I SUCK
- 20 - Uncomfortable As Fuck
- 22 - Boring Recap
- 22 - Hey
- 22 - The Hospital
- 22 - About Me
- 23 - Yet Another Entry
- 23 - Milk
- 24 - Honey Revenge
- 24 - I Need Help
- 25 - Aaron's Leaving
- December 2014
- 01 - Starring God as An Excuse
- 04 - Nudes And Music
- 06 - Lonely As Fucking Fuck
- 11 - Beautiful Smile, Maybe
- 13 - Yesterday
- 15 - Changing
- 17 - Wide Eyes
- 19 - Carter Can Go Suck a Fuck
- 21 - Epinephrin
- 21 - I Am Disconnected-Ish
- 22 - Lack of Clarity
- 24 - Fun Buddy
- 26 - It's All Okay
- 29 - Neck Kisses
2015
- January 2015
- 02 - I Think I Died Last Night
- 05 - I Am An Alien
- 06 - Beautiful Thoughts (That I ..
- 11 - Summer Art Program
- 11 - Veronica, Say Cheese
- 13 - Reasons
- 16 - Suffocating
- 16 - Carrie
- 17 - This Is A Problem
- 18 - I'm Suddenly Less
- 19 - Pretty Boy
- 19 - Oh, Yay, A List
- 21 - Stay Away
- 23 - Adrian (Yo, I Gotta Crush)
- 24 - Ham On Fuckin' Rye
- 25 - I Hate Myself Today
- 26 - No Appropriate Title?
- 30 - A Little Deforestation ..
- 31 - Golden Light
- February 2015
- 01 - Right Between The Eyes
- 02 - I Need To Shut Up
- 03 - Librarian
- 05 - Stay Tuned For Complaints!
- 07 - Writing Was a Bad Idea
- 08 - Possibly Patrick
- 12 - UGh, No Title?
- 14 - THIS FONT IS TERRIBLE
- 16 - Obsessive Issues
- 16 - Reasons Why I Should Be OK
- 17 - Making Myself Perfectly ..
- 17 - The Fight????
- 19 - Lady, I Will Touch You With ..
- 19 - Tired Thoughts
- 20 - Things That My Teacher Says ..
- 24 - A Shit Ton Of Self Hate
- 25 - 'Twas A Good Day
- 27 - Disorganized Thoughts
- 27 - Beautiful Things
- March 2015
- 01 - Mr. Grieves
- 01 - How To Predict The Future: ..
- 02 - My Education Is Mediocre
- 03 - I'm An Average Teen Today
- 05 - Baader-Meinhof Phenomenon
- 06 - Bullshit: A Novel By Me
- 07 - I Kind Of Did Stuff Today
- 11 - !!!CAKE!!!
- 12 - Wanna Hurt Myself
- 13 - Rare Drama And Daily ..
- 13 - The Loneliest Dream
- 17 - ???Happy???
- 20 - BORED AS HELL
- 23 - 3:02..
- 24 - Alien
- 25 - I'm Embarrassingly Insecure
- 29 - More Depression, Yay
- 30 - Four Miles
- April 2015
- 03 - The Past And Stuff
- 05 - Easter And Thoughts (Or ..
- 06 - Slow It Down
- 11 - Burning Tummy and Tasty Lips
- 12 - Death Of A Friend
- 12 - Elise
- 12 - Better
- 13 - Seeing Her Everywhere
- 14 - Peer Leadership
- 15 - Brief Message
- 17 - Hindsight
- 18 - Best Erotic Fanfiction Ever?
- 21 - About Me, I guess
- 22 - This Was The Other Day
- 25 - Time, Time, Time
- 26 - Very, Very Okay!!!
- 27 - Cheese Stuffed Crust Pizza
- May 2015
- 01 - Sleepy and Weepy
- 02 - Palms
- 02 - ???
- 03 - Conversations With You
- 07 - Stressed!!! Out!!!
- 11 - Zeus and Jellyfish
- 15 - It Was A Lifetime Ago
- 17 - Remembering
- 18 - Fears, Fears, Fears
- 22 - These Are Thoughts
- 22 - Afterthought
- 23 - Short Hair
- 23 - I'm an asshole
- 24 - Cleaning Is Nice
- 25 - Cute N' Morbid
- 25 - My Folks
- 26 - Struck By Being Ashamed Of ..
- 27 - People Are Nice
- 27 - Wow, if only I had someone ..
- 30 - I'm Running Out Of Titles
- 30 - Hiatus
- June 2015
- 12 - I'm... Back?
- 12 - Flickering Light
- 14 - title or frickin topic
- 14 - I Fell Into A Black Hole
- 16 - I'm Good!!
- 17 - Limestone Pillar
- 17 - April In June
- 18 - Complaints
- 18 - WHY, SELF, WHY
- 19 - WORLD = STRESS
- 19 - Some Ranting
- 19 - I NEed Friends
- 19 - (o.o) This Is What You Do
- 20 - When You Can't Think Of A ..
- 20 - In The Backseat
- 20 - lgbwaleirugha
- 21 - June Song List
- 21 - I Am Creature Of The Night
- 22 - Psychotic Flies
- 22 - Battling The Flighty One
- 23 - Lore
- 23 - Neglect
- 24 - Lycanthropy
- 24 - I'm Pissed At My Dad
- 25 - I Never Want To Re-Read This
- 25 - Perfect Petzzz
- 26 - Things To Do
- 27 - Carta Para María
- 27 - bknghjm,s,
- 29 - Wily Comets
- 30 - Some Boring Stuff
- July 2015
- 02 - Years of Dreaming
- 04 - Somewhat Sexual Things
- 04 - Crocs, Rocks, and Polka Dots
- 06 - I'm so dulllllllllll
- 09 - No Time To Name This Entry
- 12 - Willful Suspension of ..
- 12 - Skin Planet
- 16 - I Might Be Melting
- 18 - I'M SORRY FOR THE STRESS
- 19 - Thoughts
- 21 - Scattered
- 23 - Pushing
- 23 - Rants About Emotion
- 27 - Awful Sound
- 28 - IUGLIQ
- 28 - Night Skies
- 30 - Please Remain Among The ..
- 31 - July Music List
- August 2015
- 03 - Let's Choke
- 03 - Good Things
- 08 - too tired for title or topic
- 09 - From Sunday Or Something
- 09 - untitled i think
- 13 - Liv Texted Me
- 15 - I suddenly had a profound ..
- 17 - Adorn Thyself With Me!
- 17 - Heavy As A Feather
- 19 - Cold Wind
- 20 - Lil Tumbleweed of Hate
- 21 - Spider Moose
- 26 - Of Vaginas and Souls, Part 1
- 27 - Of Vaginas and Souls, Part 2
- 28 - I Dream In Color (Doesn't ..
- 29 - I Should Be Asleep
- 30 - Why Do I Have So Much To ..
- September 2015
- 01 - August Music List-y Thang
- 01 - My Cup Runneth Over!
- 02 - Tugging
- 04 - Faux Poet
- 04 - The Quest For Meaning ..
- 08 - Um
- 10 - Dandelion Sky
- 10 - DREAMS ARE SO GOOD DAMMIT
- 14 - Liv Is Blunt
- 17 - IS MY ENGLISH TEACHER ..
- 22 - I Spend This Entire Entry ..
- 23 - A Really Long, Stupid Entry
- 27 - Fraction Of The Sun
- 30 - September 2015 Music
- October 2015
- 04 - I'm a Little Bit Dead
- 08 - Friends and Complaints and ..
- 11 - Heart Break In The Morning ..
- 13 - Sense Of Humor
- 18 - Creaky Bones
- 23 - You Just Noticed Me Fading
- 23 - Cold As Hell
- 25 - Building a Desert
- 29 - Lots of Words
- 31 - Random Assortment - October ..
- 31 - Wait, What?
- November 2015
- 03 - Relax, relax
- 07 - Watch Out For Those ..
- 18 - *INSERT that song that's ..
- 20 - Strange Sensations
- 20 - Current Quest
- 25 - A Confusing Series of Words
- 25 - Nathaniel Ray's Book
- 28 - Level 4: Disaster Zone
- 29 - Random Assortment - ..
- December 2015
- 07 - Sleep Paralysis Yo
- 08 - This is literally from 3 ..
- 15 - Why Do I Never Post When I ..
- 19 - You Know That a Ball Has No ..
- 23 - Another Late Post I'M SORRY
- 27 - A Lesson in Family History
- 27 - Pulls Harder Than Gravity
- 31 - Random Assortment - ..
- 31 - Some Lists 'n Stuff
- 31 - HAunted (haha)
2016
- January 2016
- 06 - Bundle of Skin
- 07 - Sex and Cheese
- 08 - I Am The Graph, You Are The ..
- 11 - How Not To Kill Yourself
- 17 - Callous Concern
- 24 - A Conversation On The ..
- 26 - Icarus Can't Find The ..
- 28 - Things I Will Never Figure ..
- 29 - I Talk About Old People
- 31 - Random Assortment - January ..
- 31 - wtvr
- February 2016
- 12 - Guess What I'm Not Doing? ..
- 15 - Like Every Other Girl
- 16 - Disconnected
- 18 - Musings (Not The ..
- 20 - Blue Like Water
- 20 - Blue Like Water, Pt. 2
- 21 - Title, Title, Title
- 22 - Syntax
- 27 - The Psychology of Boy (I ..
- March 2016
- 03 - Out of Tune (and Feb. Music)
- 05 - Careless Characters
- 10 - Dust On The Bottom Of My ..
- 15 - 157 god damn digits and it ..
- 18 - ...Teachers Who Teach ..
- 21 - shitty dirty shit
- 24 - 3wgrHY3HT
- 27 - Ah!
- 27 - etzehntahjtaejy4ahj4
- 28 - Subject to Change
- April 2016
- 01 - Random Assortment - March ..
- 01 - You Try So Hard But You ..
- 02 - Why Do I Let Myself Take ..
- 06 - I Might Vomit (not really) ..
- 07 - ??? Dunno What's Going On
- 08 - More Cynical Rants From ..
- 10 - How Long To Live?
- 19 - Bad News Followed By Good ..
- 21 - I Need You I Don't Need You
- 23 - Dancin' Queen
- 27 - Kelly Ripa Launches This ..
- 29 - Alice, Are You Dead?
- May 2016
- 01 - Random Assortment - April ..
- 02 - Issues With Idealism
- 03 - Fuck You, Henry David ..
- 04 - Punch (me) In (the) Face
- 05 - From Thursday
- 08 - You're Getting Old... Kind ..
- 09 - Omniscient Internet
- 10 - Blinded By The Sun
- 15 - 'splain
- 16 - Forever Ago (AKA a couple ..
- 20 - dull, dull, dull
- 22 - Useless Thought
- 24 - Character Flaw
- 26 - Oh I Guess I Wrote This On ..
- 28 - Fuckfuckfucksomemorelatepost ..
- 30 - Alone On Top Of A Mountain, ..
- 30 - Things, Things, More Things
- June 2016
- 04 - Paraphrasing
- 07 - I'm Sorry, I Wish I Was ..
- 09 - Random Assortment - May 2016
- 09 - Aliens, Aliens, How Do You ..
- 10 - Hey, What, This Is Nothing ..
- 11 - Oh, Noose
- 12 - kooler than math (that's me ..
- 14 - People Are Dead, But I'm ..
- 15 - !!! PEOPLE ARE SO NICE TO ..
- 18 - muzzle of bees
- 22 - The World Hurts (it always ..
- 23 - giruwhnougzngvngvb ;AQfBOU ..
- 24 - hey, hi, also
- 26 - *bangs head on keyboard* ..
- 26 - On the Subject of Youth
- 29 - Memorabilia
- 30 - I Drive Myself Insane
- July 2016
- 01 - It Slips
- 02 - Sad Face Emoticons
- 02 - Random Assortment - June ..
- 02 - Hi. It Is Currently 12:40 ..
- 06 - She is Sleepy and She Rants
- 06 - That-Kid-From-School
- 07 - Nothing That Is Worth ..
- 12 - ignore this
- 12 - company in my back
- 13 - myehheheh
- 18 - Plant Pot
- 21 - Family is Such Work
- 22 - I'm Really Confused Right ..
- 31 - grey ice water in the head
- 31 - what, what is this
- August 2016
- 03 - Random Assortment - July ..
- 04 - The Point
- 05 - Let's All Take (Use?) ..
- 05 - Some Boring Stuff About My ..
- 07 - Distinctions
- 10 - Gonna Die, That's Okay
- 10 - Mercurial Creatures
- 13 - Half-Formed People
- 15 - Ethereal, I'm In Bloom!
- 24 - hot dog water has replaced ..
- 29 - Who Knows What I Even Wrote ..
- September 2016
- 03 - Random Assortment - August ..
- 03 - (i'm a little paranoid ..
- 05 - From Monday
- 08 - About My People
- 11 - can-not see
- 13 - it takes a lot to make me ..
- 16 - Out of Order
- 19 - stuff that i said yesterday
- 20 - I HAVE FOUND MY FUTURE she ..
- 23 - The Luxury of Sympathy
- 28 - ??? confused
- October 2016
- 01 - And She Proceeds To Talk ..
- 01 - Random Assortment - ..
- 05 - oh man. I can't even think ..
- 08 - hElo
- 13 - Thoughts About/Bitterness ..
- 17 - Dissonance
- 18 - *insert scribbles here*
- 22 - Petty Stupid Stuff, As Usual
- 24 - Elsewhere (with a side of ..
- 25 - hey look i posted
- November 2016
- 02 - what the
- 14 - the What
- 18 - Random Assortment - October ..
- 18 - (if only she would stop ..
- 24 - Not Fucked Up
- 27 - How Many Words Can a Girl ..
- 28 - God Damn it
- 30 - Random Assortment - ..
- 30 - insert something about ..
- December 2016
- 04 - she posts this because why
- 07 - electronic surgical words
- 07 - Missed my therapy..
- 11 - There Be Dragons Here!
- 15 - I Wish For Death (Haha... ..
- 30 - On (Never) Landing a ..
2017
- January 2017
- 01 - Flat Nothing
- 06 - Again and again and again ..
- 06 - Lkjaksk
- 10 - In which I talk a lot about ..
- 16 - Shadow, shadow, shadow
- 17 - Random Assortment - ..
- 22 - Isaac Mostly
- 24 - Titles are Getting to be a ..
- 31 - Random Assortment - January ..
- 31 - So Adrian is Boring....
- February 2017
- 03 - So, More Isaac Again
- 04 - Stuff That I Said On ..
- 08 - ???
- 11 - Daria Kind of Sucks
- 20 - Ebb 'n Flow
- 22 - Little More than a Stain in ..
- 25 - Relationship Angst??? And ..
- March 2017
- 02 - Random Assortment - ..
- 08 - From, Like, Five Days Ago
- 12 - Breakthrough!
- 15 - From the Way-Back-When (AKA ..
- 20 - A Bitter Tastant Detected ..
- 23 - Angstin' Even Though I'm ..
- 25 - College n' Friends
- 27 - Frac-tured
- 30 - !!!!!!!!!!
- 31 - Random Assortment - March ..
- April 2017
- 07 - Dive
- 09 - Uncertain Past
- 10 - Leaning
- 22 - guts
- 27 - I am Sad
- 30 - In Which I Love Myself
- May 2017
- 01 - Random Assortment - April ..
- 07 - I am...!!!
- 07 - I've Been Reading Too Many ..
- 14 - She Goes on a Tangent ..
- June 2017
- 03 - Random Assortment - May 2017
- 03 - Taster
- 05 - Oh, So I Got Semi-Murdered ..
- 10 - I was wrong about the thing ..
- 17 - Into Dust
- 20 - Self, Don't Fuck This Up
- 22 - sympathize
- 29 - Random Assortment - June ..
- 29 - I want to take a tiny nap.
- July 2017
- 02 - in need of a tourniquet
- 02 - wAIT tho
- 09 - Achievement Unlocked: Zima ..
- 09 - Some Notes
- 10 - Lady how the hell do i know ..
- 21 - quick stupid entry I hate ..
- 26 - lukewarm burnt toast person ..
- 27 - Abridged Family History
- August 2017
- 03 - Hole in the World
- 05 - Random Assortment - July ..
- 07 - Adrian is a Fascinating ..
- 15 - Shitting
- 17 - swell
- 31 - Random Assortment - August ..
- September 2017
- 06 - "Empty" by Kevin ..
- 08 - sleep away the skull
- 10 - Adjust
- 13 - Wallerian Degeneration
- 15 - bits of you
- 16 - ouch ouch ouch
- 17 - I Seem to be Experiencing ..
- 20 - turn to vapor, float away
- 22 - The Miracle of Sound!!!
- 28 - go to bed early
- 29 - Wait
- 30 - "Farewell Transmission" by ..
- October 2017
- 02 - Random Assortment - ..
- 08 - night is the lonely
- 12 - "Suffocation Keep" by The ..
- 16 - Lancelot the Therapist
- 17 - Buzzing, buzzing
- 19 - whooo is the human
- 21 - Mharty
- 28 - "My Blue Heaven" by ..
- 31 - Random Assortment - October ..
- 31 - i am as obsessed with sex ..
- November 2017
- 02 - powder
- 04 - cold fish
- 08 - agitated
- 12 - pervasive
- 15 - "Low" by ..
- 17 - some liar i am
- 18 - nightmare trees!!!
- 21 - slump behind my brain
- 28 - i could almost feel the sun
- December 2017
- 02 - Random Assortment - ..
- 02 - me being unproductive (aka ..
- 11 - agonized
- 13 - she is upset and she ..
- 16 - twitchy in the soul
- 31 - Random Assortment - ..
2018
- January 2018
- 03 - About Adrian
- 08 - its winter
- 11 - Private: trust
- 13 - Private: eabfioilfgw
- 15 - Private: title title title
- 17 - Private: i will grind you ..
- 23 - Private: "Alabama Pines" by ..
- 23 - Private: quotes from Beloved
- 31 - Private: Random Assortment ..
- February 2018
- 03 - I'm dying, I'm dying, I'm ..
- 05 - suddenly verbose
- 11 - squash
- 20 - O, how sleepy I am, O!
- 25 - mournful
- 28 - Random Assortment - ..
- 28 - baby cries
- March 2018
- 02 - safety and sad
- 04 - an infinite series of ..
- 07 - Ex! Cess! Abscess!
- 10 - had a nightmare that ..
- 11 - trash can
- 13 - Jesus Christ Girl
- 14 - veronica has
- 14 - I did not sleep until 4 AM, ..
- 14 - hope
- 15 - "Twilight" by Elliott ..
- 23 - a tooth out of line
- 23 - i miss
- 27 - Haircut
- 30 - "My Lady's House" ..
- 31 - Random Assortment - March ..
- April 2018
- 01 - The Iron Core
- 01 - self, I love you and I ..
- 04 - cut-open carotid
- 06 - moby, you are the fire ..
- 08 - distortions
- 10 - rape dreams
- 10 - in the unoccupied space
- 14 - it doesn't matter who we ..
- 18 - "Sober to Death" by ..
- 21 - unfinished entry—got ..
- 23 - vagueries
- 23 - it doesn't have to be like ..
- 24 - The Dylan-Cohen Conundrum
- 28 - might as well
- 30 - Random Assortment - April ..
- May 2018
- 01 - neutrophil projectile, up ..
- 03 - Love, love, love you
- 05 - written while drunk: why am ..
- 05 - Boooooooys
- 11 - circling the thought
- 15 - thought underskin
- 17 - Ibn's Poetics
- 20 - "Feel the Same" by ..
- 20 - Category: Fury
- 22 - A Brief History of, of, of--
- 28 - nowhere thoughts
- 30 - Random Assortment - May 2018
- 30 - you can never tell the ..
- June 2018
- 02 - of yesterday
- 03 - "Flaw" by Soccer ..
- 06 - do you know what she meant
- 06 - Refrain
- 09 - Nonsense.
- 13 - "Mis" by (Sandy) Alex ..
- 16 - This too shall pass, my ass
- 17 - settled sediment
- 19 - she is in no-space
- 24 - ur-anium
- 29 - Random Assortment - June ..
- July 2018
- 01 - Kisses and Masturbation
- 08 - jus' some pre-work ramblin'
- 16 - Home Again
- 30 - pulled towards a hole
- August 2018
- 01 - Random Assortment - July ..
- 06 - super morbid thoughts at ..
- 08 - go to bed early and you ..
- 10 - better
- 15 - "Terrible Love (Alternate ..
- 17 - forgive her, lack of sleep
- 21 - no-thing in the head
- 26 - "A Pearl" by ..MitskiYou&
- 26 - rope
- September 2018
- 03 - Random Assortment - August ..
- 03 - thinner at the waistline
- 04 - im: anxiety
- 09 - dream
- 11 - details
- 16 - "Beach ..
- 17 - if only I could sustain my ..
- 18 - a codependent relationship ..
- 19 - On Erasure: an assignment ..
- 24 - September 24, 2018 ..
- 30 - Random Assortment - ..
- October 2018
- 12 - raining
- 17 - men
- 21 - If Someone Walked Me Home: ..
- 27 - holes in the throat
- November 2018
- 11 - Random Assortment - October ..
- 11 - im filling up this title ..
- 19 - Let me come over
- 26 - home as a place i used to be
- December 2018
- 02 - Random Assortment - ..
- 06 - i don't remember what it's ..
- 17 - horse-man
- 18 - I'm Not Angry Anymore and ..
- 31 - Random Assortment - ..
- 31 - grandma
2019
- January 2019
- 06 - Masturbating is Fun: and ..
- 11 - homeless guilt, an ..
- February 2019
- 04 - self-loathing trash~~
- 06 - Anxiety and Other Drugs
- 16 - a downward tilt
- 27 - ???
- March 2019
- 01 - Random Assortment - ..
- 06 - that guy dan
- 10 - Done
- 11 - Ego and Other Things
- 30 - Random Assortment - March ..
- 30 - Good, Bad, Same Diff
- April 2019
- 04 - "In Circles" by Sunny ..
- 06 - "Просто о сложном" by ..
- 24 - panic attack broooo
- 28 - Ugly Brunette
- May 2019
- 12 - Random Assortment - April ..
- June 2019
- 06 - Random Assortment - May 2019
- 06 - desperation is the name of ..
- 15 - anxiety n stuff
- 17 - a notsobrief update
- 19 - I'm still angry
- 24 - just goin'
- 27 - At This Time Today
- 27 - 11:52 ..
- 28 - ----
- 30 - Random Assortment - June ..
- July 2019
- 01 - "chaos arpeggiating" ..
- 05 - Things are good
- 12 - Limbs
- 14 - shitty but ok
- 18 - as usual
- 20 - It is 95 degrees
- 21 - dreams dreams dreams
- 25 - Trippin'
- 26 - followed by: feelings
- August 2019
- 04 - Random Assortment - July ..
- 04 - Written (Mostly) on the Bus ..
- 13 - just some regular post-nap ..
- 14 - eyes: floating
- 15 - "Spiral of Ants" by ..
- 25 - dad, grandma, people lovin ..
- 31 - Random Assortment - August ..
- September 2019
- 07 - some hollowed thoughts
- 10 - me being dramatic because ..
- 26 - i have a ~crush~ and it's ..
- 30 - Random Assortment - ..
- October 2019
- 08 - Grandma
- 12 - Melt Like a Witch and Scream
- 18 - "Humiliation" by the ..
- 20 - Pretty Much, Fuck Me
- 27 - Just Thinkin' on some ..
- 30 - dreadful! but no im good tho
- 31 - Random Assortment - October ..
- November 2019
- 04 - -less
- 07 - dreams
- 21 - tired tired tired tired
- 30 - Random Assortment - ..
- December 2019
- 01 - The November Report
- 01 - An Addendum
- 05 - feeling ..
- 07 - I Sense Something Bad (Is ..
- 08 - good day
- 14 - wwhatts... goin on
- 27 - updates: california
2020
- January 2020
- 06 - January 6, 2020 Monday ..
- 08 - Random Assortment - ..
- 08 - horror: Mark Z. Danielewski ..
- 29 - Random Assortment - January ..
- 29 - "Give Out" ..
- February 2020
- 11 - soil soil soil im in the ..
- 16 - an experience of the lesser ..
- 17 - emptiness and other ..
- 24 - tired
- March 2020
- 03 - Random Assortment - ..
- 03 - new skin boots
- 11 - more yellow birds
- 12 - "Hand of God" by Kevin ..
- 12 - absent
- 16 - where i'm anymore
- 17 - a fine day for a-pocket-lips
- 23 - a meander through this cold ..
- 28 - different energy
- April 2020
- 03 - Random Assortment - March ..
- 07 - mark and natalya and other ..
- 16 - guess i'm not sleeping ..
- 22 - false start
- 23 - the answering machine: a ..
- 28 - okokokok
- May 2020
- 03 - Random Assortment - April ..
- 08 - Missing, Missing (God's ..
- 09 - burnt
- 11 - grown
- 14 - pulled by a string
- 18 - animal in my chest
- 18 - 11:57 ..
- 19 - get ur head out of the oven
- June 2020
- 03 - Random Assortment - May 2020
- 04 - Grandma's in a little box ..
- 21 - broken days
- July 2020
- 01 - Random Assortment - June ..
- 09 - ~anxious
- 16 - Reflections/Forty Days ..
- 24 - Id-entity
- August 2020
- 07 - Random Assortment - July ..
- 07 - spider season
- 15 - Diagnoses Pt. 1
- 15 - Diagnoses Pt. 2 - ..
- 15 - Diagnoses Pt. 3
- 24 - Son in Sun insun: anyway, ..
- 30 - Random Assortment - August ..
- September 2020
- 13 - vom
- 14 - overgrown
- 17 - sick little world
- 22 - some night (morning) ..
- October 2020
- 01 - Random Assortment - ..
- 01 - carbonated brain juice and ..
- 10 - feeling poorly
- 15 - list
- 27 - in which I rant a lot about ..
- November 2020
- 01 - moonwater
- 01 - Random Assortment - October ..
- 10 - the bodily
- 12 - update on Bad Feelings(tm)
- 18 - what's goin' on! in my head?
- 29 - Random Assortment - ..
- 29 - brief recount of my mood ..
- December 2020
- 07 - professor haunt and the ..
- 13 - stupid rock that i hate ..
- 16 - taking inventory: the ..
- 20 - angst and then some brief ..
- 21 - dream driving
- 27 - and now I'm ranting abt ..
2021
- January 2021
- 02 - Random Assortment - ..
- 04 - musing on relationships (im ..
- 11 - fast-thoughts, think fast, ..
- 15 - sigh it's another one of ..
- 24 - the women come and go, ..
- February 2021
- 09 - Random Assortment - January ..
- 25 - a nonlinear nonsensical ..
- 27 - kidna wish i hadnt written ..
- 28 - Random Assortment - ..
- March 2021
- 04 - Elise, boys, music (im ..
- 06 - Lesbians in Media and Neon ..
- 08 - more Attack on Titan (bc i ..
- 13 - mouth like a blinking eye
- 27 - sun-smell
- April 2021
- 08 - Random Assortment - March ..
- 10 - nocturne
- 10 - non-state
- 25 - It could be worse
- 30 - Random Assortment - April ..
- May 2021
- 07 - thoughts unspooled and also ..
- 15 - itchy heart
- 19 - street cleaning
- 29 - first time I've felt this ..
- June 2021
- 03 - Random Assortment - May 2021
- 09 - quiet, cold: it's raining ..
- 12 - thin and be forgotten
- 19 - post-grocery store ..
- 25 - not
- July 2021
- 03 - everything's gonna be fine
- 03 - Random Assortment - June ..
- 25 - sexuality non-crisis
- August 2021
- 01 - Random Assortment - July ..
- 04 - Veronica's Incomplete Guide ..
- 09 - the man, the myth, the ..
- 17 - sick summer (my coffee ..
- 26 - NEW memory UNLOCKED!
- 28 - thinking about: sex and ..
- 29 - boys (sigh)
- September 2021
- 03 - Random Assortment - August ..
- 03 - september again
- 09 - anxiety and rascal does not ..
- 09 - nothing nothing nothing
- 10 - better, bad memories, brown ..
- 13 - a wall you can walk through
- 14 - on running and outrunning
- 17 - apt w psychiatrist (not ..
- 18 - srry for more negativity, ..
- 27 - being a bad person— wanting ..
- October 2021
- 01 - Random Assortment - ..
- 08 - a dry entry
- 13 - what shall i do with my ..
- 19 - the yawning day
- 23 - flip a switch n smile
- November 2021
- 01 - made some mistakes this ..
- 06 - excessive introspection to ..
- 09 - bungou stray dogs (a trash ..
- 11 - had a date yesterday, it ..
- 12 - Random Assortment - October ..
- 19 - no longer human
- 25 - a list of occurrences
- 30 - imagine reading this after ..
- 30 - Random Assortment - ..
- December 2021
- 01 - uncharacteristically ..
- 08 - snowing
- 10 - another meeting w my ..
- 12 - i exist i exist i exist
2022
- January 2022
- 02 - Random Assortment - ..
- 04 - is this what they call ..
- 11 - waking up to a fresh cup of ..
- 16 - for posterity: a brief list
- 31 - Random Assortment - January ..
- February 2022
- 04 - ah, another dip into the ..
- 28 - the bird test
- 28 - February, collected
- March 2022
- 01 - a little mad, a little sad
- 02 - Random Assortment - ..
- 07 - haha.
- 21 - (actively lying to myself ..
- 23 - some notes (more sad shit, ..
- 25 - fun times in the [redacted] ..
- April 2022
- 01 - Random Assortment - March ..
- 24 - boneyards in the brain
- 24 - god's great ledger
- May 2022
- 08 - Random Assortment - April ..
- 29 - questions questions sunlight
- July 2022
- 01 - Random Assortment - May 2022
- 03 - A short reflection on: ..
- 04 - Random Assortment - June ..
- 21 - never listen to the fray ..
- 29 - coming unstuck
- August 2022
- 01 - oivnskjndvjadnkv ah
- 01 - Random Assortment - July ..
- 27 - an unfinished entry
- September 2022
- 03 - Random Assortment - August ..
- 08 - dear thesaurus: i keep ..
- 18 - Do I dare disturb the ..
- 25 - unclip my heart like a ..
- 30 - Pondering and then ranting ..
- October 2022
- 01 - Random Assortment - ..
- 02 - On answering a question
- 07 - it's cold out today
- 12 - the north country
- 16 - doing better
- 30 - Random Assortment - October ..
- November 2022
- 07 - idk project sekai rants
- 13 - cafe job
- 20 - let me sleep
- 28 - very stressed, shall i ..
- December 2022
- 01 - Random Assortment - ..
- 02 - Another List of Occurrences
- 08 - a nothing entry
- 11 - gaahhhhh
- 16 - it ain't a real job til ..
- 20 - a stray thought, shot off ..
- 26 - A life in dialogue (kinda ..
2023
- January 2023
- 03 - new year— Sarazanmai— a ..
- 06 - Random Assortment - ..
- 16 - lmao forgot to finish this ..
- 26 - a good dream
- 31 - Random Assortment - January ..
- February 2023
- 01 - extremely hard to ..
- 01 - haha~~~~ love (and lack ..
- 08 - Another good dream, sort of
- 16 - a flood of affection
- 21 - On: On: On: Writing?
- 22 - mood; dead cat
- 23 - meeting myself: again and ..
- March 2023
- 01 - hmmm
- 02 - Random Assortment - ..
- 06 - Hometown Tales
- 24 - unfinished: i got ahold of ..
- 27 - Random Assortment - March ..
- April 2023
- 07 - i wrote this yesterday in a ..
- 08 - i'm really in a mood lately
- 15 - judgment, condemnation; ..
- 20 - Hmm. Hmm. Hmm.
- 22 - a whole fucking nonsense ..
- 24 - more nonsense
- 24 - What. Is this
- 29 - hggghhrr
- May 2023
- 23 - Random Assortment - April ..
- June 2023
- 04 - On Old Letters
- 20 - kdfbiwufbaq hmm
- 23 - some sex-related musings
- July 2023
- 04 - Random Assortment - May 2023
- 04 - am i. moving? to japan? ..
- 17 - japan and stuff
- August 2023
- 07 - Uh
- 14 - Random Assortment - June ..
- 15 - Random Assortment - July ..
- September 2023
- 18 - Random Assortment - August ..
- October 2023
- 11 - thoughts
- November 2023
- 11 - Random Assortment - ..
- 11 - Random Assortment - October ..
- 11 - thought dump
- December 2023
- 04 - Random Assortment - ..
- 31 - Random Assortment - ..
- 31 - new year— stranger place
2024
- February 2024
- 11 - Random Assortment - January ..
- 11 - rpf, romance, indecision
- 14 - an aborted attempt at ..
- 24 - maladaptive daydreaming
- 29 - Random Assortment - ..
- March 2024
- 11 - homesick: itemized
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About:
My name is Veronica. I'm a 24 year old from upstate NY. I've had this diary since I was 13 years old. In a nutshell, I'm very temperamental and I fear everything. This means that my entries either consist of angsty thoughts or strange yelling. Sometimes both??? Sorry. My interests include writing, mythology/folklore, indie rock, books, languages, neuroscience, knowledge in general, and people. Also, I have GAD, but that's probably pretty obvious.
(be-yondrepair.tumblr.com or bend-and-brake.tumblr.com)(Diary formerly 'All These Things That I've Done' and changed on Sept. 1, 2014)(Most names are changed)