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The Real Me
2010
- August 2010
- 19 - Realization
- 21 - A night out and Life.
- 22 - Being me from the dirt (In ..
- 31 - Seeing V again.
- September 2010
- 04 - Down
- 05 - Need to sleep
- 06 - Obssesion?
- 07 - Today and thoughts.
- 10 - He finally called =)
- 12 - Down again
- 14 - Nothing much
- 14 - Guilt
- October 2010
- 18 - October and Recap
- November 2010
- 16 - I have everything yet ..
- 22 - Past few months
- 26 - Shit Happens?
- 28 - Anger
- December 2010
- 06 - Trying to be Slightly Normal
- 25 - christmas eve
2011
- January 2011
- 04 - Me. Fuked up little me. Oh ..
- 10 - My shit life
- 26 - Great
- 30 - Insecurity sucks =(
- February 2011
- 28 - So alongside mental and ..
- March 2011
- 04 - Im okay =) Despite so much ..
- 04 - Reading back.
- May 2011
- 14 - What is wrong with me
- June 2011
- 06 - Now
- 08 - Cut me loose.
- July 2011
- 24 - As I sit here and reflect..
- August 2011
- 21 - whats the point.
2012
- February 2012
- 02 - Angels and Stars.
- 14 - Valentines Day
- May 2012
- 28 - Oh your cheating heart.
- June 2012
- 22 - I hate Myself
- September 2012
- 01 - The ex
- October 2012
- 06 - In my own little head.
- 20 - The present
2013
- January 2013
- 30 - I cant think of a new title ..
- February 2013
- 22 - Fascinated.
- March 2013
- 15 - What am I thinking?
- 19 - You must beleive in ..
- May 2013
- 17 - Not good enough
- 29 - Changes!
- 29 - Slut diaries.
- 30 - *sigh*
- June 2013
- 04 - Just give up
- 05 - I seriously never give up.
- 05 - Killed it.
- 06 - Gyming for 4 hours and Him.
- 06 - I feel crap.(Warning: alot ..
- 06 - I feel crap.(Warning: alot ..
- 07 - No water
- 07 - The story behind me and my ..
- 07 - Fake girls.
- 08 - When I write in here alot ..
- 09 - I start tomorow
- 10 - I quit
- 16 - What I want.
- 21 - Scared to love and trust.
- 21 - I miss sex
- 21 - Gym, body and Hotness?
- 22 - Thoughts
- 22 - More thoughts
- July 2013
- 03 - My painful knee.
- September 2013
- 08 - Psychopath ex
- 09 - Fustration.
- 09 - Fustration.
- 15 - I miss love
- October 2013
- 08 - I think I have a crush on ..
- 09 - Whats worse?
- 10 - Fear
- 14 - Paranoid Schitzophrenia
- 28 - My life.
- November 2013
- 17 - Narcissism
- 21 - Snapped
- 21 - Random Thoughts.
- 25 - I wont let you.
- December 2013
- 09 - Destiny
- 15 - Down.
2014
- February 2014
- 10 - seeing v again
- 11 - Friends or Enemies?
- 12 - Update
- 14 - Valentine's day
- 15 - Last night...sex, today the ..
- 17 - Abusive Relationship?
- 18 - Mundane.
- 18 - Feel sorry for myself.
- 20 - No Silver linings - Feeling ..
- 20 - What pisses me off
- 22 - No body caress
- 22 - Selfish
- 25 - Hold on to this advice.
- 26 - Bitch of a bff
- March 2014
- 19 - Step up
- 31 - Fear
- April 2014
- 02 - Comment to remember "The ..
- 04 - Mathias.
- June 2014
- 13 - Other things
- 15 - Wth.
- July 2014
- 06 - reflections
- 14 - Dark Thoughts.
- 17 - Taken advantage of when ..
- 19 - Day 16
- August 2014
- 26 - A highly paid Escort.
- 28 - Today...
- September 2014
- 11 - Chicken.
- 11 - The picture of abuse
- 11 - No title
- 14 - The Dr.
- 15 - I need to get Laid.
- 16 - crap
- 19 - lying next to me.
- October 2014
- 08 - ashes
- November 2014
- 03 - A piece of Advice if you ..
- 08 - Aftermath of Abuse
- 08 - Dr M.
- 09 - The Mess
- 09 - Let him go.
- 10 - Shit Happens get over it.
- 11 - Feedback Needed...Honesty.
- 14 - Fights.
- December 2014
- 14 - Holiday
- 20 - ape
- 22 - inna racheal
- 23 - I told him
- 23 - December Dumpage.
- 23 - Over fucntion
- 23 - Hurt hurt hurt
- 24 - Closing, Resolve.
- 26 - You are not here.
- 27 - Dr M is still here?
- 29 - The Apprentice.
- 30 - Family
- 31 - Sex with Dr M and mental ..
2015
- January 2015
- 02 - Jay
- 09 - Arguments
- 22 - Gut Feelings
- 24 - Sexual Relations.
- February 2015
- 08 - Cycles
- 10 - Anger.
- 18 - What is love?
- 20 - All good things come to an ..
- 20 - Feedback?: Am I the abuser ..
- 22 - Nearly got raped.
- 22 - End.
- 23 - Going to the police?
- 23 - Anticipation
- March 2015
- 06 - Lies
- 07 - pain
- 07 - My heart is torn
- 08 - Inclined to Hurt.
- 09 - Reality kicked in.
- 09 - Sarah- His Ex
- 10 - Who is Dr M?
- 10 - feeling shit again.
- 11 - Pain and Porn.
- 11 - Reaching out to all my ex's
- 19 - Barcelona
- 21 - Bored.
- 23 - Just Whatever.
- 23 - I dont care
- April 2015
- 04 - things.
- 04 - Broken.
- 09 - Messy
- 10 - Hell and back
- 11 - is it me?
- 20 - dreams and nightmares
- 22 - Close to a breakup now.
- 24 - Secrets and lies
- 29 - Should i send this to M?
- May 2015
- 05 - Dr M Updates
- 13 - The Stuff I never talk ..
- 20 - The ugly
- 22 - Never date a doctor!! EVER!
- 22 - Losing
- 22 - Depression
- 22 - urgh
- 23 - argh
- 24 - how could you?
- 25 - highs and lows
- 27 - Sick with worry
- 27 - So down.
- 27 - if you love something set ..
- 28 - Setting the asshole free.
- 29 - wow..
- June 2015
- 01 - Bored again
- 02 - Relationships.
- 15 - Endings.
- July 2015
- 23 - Oh lets Wander
- September 2015
- 07 - The Utter Demise of things.
- 07 - Demons.
- 07 - Fucked up Dr M..advice ..
- 08 - Day 1
2016
- January 2016
- 05 - Mistakes
- March 2016
- 08 - Flames
- June 2016
- 20 - Survival.
- September 2016
- 05 - Bye "Family"
- October 2016
- 12 - Familia - written last week
- 30 - Remember me
- November 2016
- 15 - Just a dream
- December 2016
- 20 - Fucking normal
2017
- April 2017
- 04 - I know why
- 07 - Nic
- 09 - Complicated
- 16 - One moment. One second. One ..
- 17 - Embracing myself
- May 2017
- 20 - Vulnerability
- 21 - Getting Ghosted
- June 2017
- 05 - Change
- 05 - Change
- 22 - Paranoia
- July 2017
- 12 - Cold
- 14 - Threats
- 25 - It feels like some sort of ..
- August 2017
- 22 - this is getting ridiculous ..
- September 2017
- 01 - The One
- 18 - drugs and love
- 18 - drugs and love
- October 2017
- 18 - before
- November 2017
- 29 - Yep that exactly that. Its ..
- December 2017
- 11 - Empowerment
2018
- March 2018
- 10 - 28
- 10 - overwhelmed
- April 2018
- 07 - eloping
- 22 - pushing him away
- 22 - pushing him away
- May 2018
- 25 - old wounds die hard
- 26 - what I'm made of.
- 26 - why you did that
- 26 - whatever
- June 2018
- 05 - sexual assault
- 24 - psychotic break down
- 24 - no trust
- July 2018
- 28 - Jealousy
- August 2018
- 28 - today
- October 2018
- 26 - I don't come here often ..
2019
- May 2019
- 10 - 1 year later
- June 2019
- 05 - depressing day
- August 2019
- 25 - Tired
- December 2019
- 17 - New hell
2020
- June 2020
- 11 - I
- October 2020
- 12 - Doing good
2021
- June 2021
- 15 - Motherfuckin memories
- July 2021
- 20 - Im kinda a success
- August 2021
- 02 - What's new? Let's see. ..
- 02 - Strong
- September 2021
- 22 - My little Narc Brain
- 22 - I still think about him ..
- 22 - Why pretend
2022
- May 2022
- 27 - More
- August 2022
- 11 - The more days that ..
- 11 - I went to this girls house ..
- 17 - Father
- October 2022
- 15 - Stu
- 16 - Baby
- 16 - Hi S
2023
- August 2023
- 03 - max my dog
- September 2023
- 10 - Convo with Ex Husband Mateo
- November 2023
- 14 - Here.
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