Mamaca
All that is
2008
- April 2008
- 21 - blah
- 21 - NYC
- 21 - closure. ?
- 22 - seriously
- 22 - daniel christensen
- 23 - mylifehasnomeanin
- May 2008
- 01 - happiness
- 15 - fuck shit
- 15 - luke
- 18 - tuesday 13th of may to ..
- 19 - A.S.S.H.O.L.E
- 19 - admition
- 21 - On it again
- August 2008
- 06 - rant
- 06 - rant2
- November 2008
- 11 - holy shit
2009
- January 2009
- 19 - dilema
- 26 - shunt
- February 2009
- 14 - fuck me
- 14 - pam you're a fucking idiot
- 14 - haha past mutterings about ..
- April 2009
- 15 - I know now why i slept ..
- May 2009
- 02 - hoxton sq and benedict (f)
- 03 - ben who?
- 31 - ben. again.
- June 2009
- 12 - architecture buffs
- 13 - it's back on?
- 13 - some dude named nick. ..
- 15 - the thing..
- 22 - rantings
- 23 - i want to believe you
- 23 - 'yes' man
- 24 - They have an almost ..
- 25 - well it would seem...
- 25 - RIP MJ
- 29 - a scorp
- July 2009
- 19 - and so it is...
- 19 - that dream
- 21 - i must.
- August 2009
- 05 - i dream
- 05 - benediction
- 25 - mutterings
- 25 - No title
- 25 - benedick.
- December 2009
- 02 - clueless
- 03 - no call
- 04 - blah blah
- 13 - "i'm a big girl..."
2010
- January 2010
- 14 - self respect is about ..
- 26 - repulsion/repellent/recoil
- 26 - Self-worshipping Jamie ..
- February 2010
- 23 - ibk
- March 2010
- 11 - On any given day, i live on ..
- May 2010
- 08 - six foot four flake.
- 28 - I feel like something s ..
- June 2010
- 12 - summer loving..or not
- 24 - ben's cause
- 28 - i bought a vibrating bullet ..
- October 2010
- 05 - move.
- November 2010
- 03 - oh no
- December 2010
- 17 - my new one
2011
- January 2011
- 19 - friends with money
- February 2011
- 13 - we can hang this in your ..
- 19 - fucking cunt, he is.
- 26 - k and people
- March 2011
- 16 - haha hilarious
- 17 - rahrahrah
- 20 - what i thought
- April 2011
- 08 - ph
- 12 - easter '11
- 20 - psl
- 20 - listsssss
- 22 - rumplsestilkskin
- 26 - Ben was energetic, enthus..
- May 2011
- 02 - still here
- 05 - i really am a complete fuck ..
- 08 - bamidele
- 11 - bloom or doom
- 15 - fuck my life space
- 19 - mi little paccalino
- June 2011
- 09 - how do i describe my week..
- 30 - Well, yes, a third is the..
- July 2011
- 03 - 22
- 05 - As Mel puts it: 'I don't ..
- 06 - Advertising, getting press ..
- 08 - lets count sheep
- 08 - they don't bottle up thei..
- 11 - moi 0z Life Path Number 9..
- 14 - some people say nothing m..
- 16 - NMES
- 23 - lol was on the bus the ot..
- 27 - its likely the man in ..
- August 2011
- 14 - I went to the launch of ..
- 24 - B..?
- September 2011
- 20 - How is it that one can be..
- 22 - listsssss
- 25 - fucking lost the entry i ..
- 28 - something new
- 30 - Tweeeet
- 30 - so, text from kate this..
- October 2011
- 01 - I actually loved it ..
- 01 - see...?
- 07 - this is just too much, i ..
- 08 - all i want is a second ..
- 17 - :(((((((((
- 18 - N.Y.L.O.N.
- 20 - Thank goodness
- 23 - whoa.
- 25 - to strive, to seek, to ..
- 25 - wawawaha
- November 2011
- 01 - cfiloveyou
- 04 - listsssss2
- 12 - feeling strangely fine
- 19 - dog-eat-dog
- 19 - fwb
- 27 - Sail
- December 2011
- 05 - revw
2012
- January 2012
- 15 - New Year
- 15 - It is hard to get beyond ..
- 21 - What I learned this week
- 22 - THANK YOU!
- 27 - How obvious was that and ..
- 28 - I fucked a girl in my ..
- February 2012
- 08 - fucking did it again!!! i ..
- 10 - Narcissist
- 14 - Dennings
- 17 - Riddle me this??
- 19 - One Percent Education
- 21 - NYLON
- March 2012
- 04 - The title of this book ..
- April 2012
- 14 - what i dreamt last night
- 14 - A.
- 17 - miaow
- 29 - My life as I know it is ..
- July 2012
- 25 - montgomery fitzgerald ..
- August 2012
- 27 - From a man, first and ..
- November 2012
- 05 - KILL ME NOW
- 18 - drome
- December 2012
- 04 - First day back from ..
- 07 - suffering
- 15 - I'm shy around him - the ..
- 15 - Wine
- 27 - dvvy
- 28 - He makes me so volatile. ..
- 28 - Had the strangest dream ..
2013
- January 2013
- 01 - NYR
- 02 - REASONS WHY LONDON IS THE ..
- 20 - Introvert
- February 2013
- 21 - Django review - bradshaw
- March 2013
- 19 - Jasmine Garden
- 24 - quips
- April 2013
- 21 - summat aint right
- May 2013
- 17 - The Audacity
- 28 - so this just happened.
- July 2013
- 01 - New
- 04 - July 3rd
- 09 - old habits die hard.
- 14 - casual sex is bad for the..
- September 2013
- 11 - I'm sat at the empire ..
- November 2013
- 30 - Im sat in a vietnamese..
2014
- January 2014
- 23 - Observer
- March 2014
- 17 - to be or not to be
- April 2014
- 06 - nonbf
- 06 - nonbf
- June 2014
- 23 - FFS
- July 2014
- 01 - twentyfive
- 02 - 2nd july
- August 2014
- 12 - article depression
- 24 - mid-twenties territory
- 25 - the kiss
- September 2014
- 06 - Abyss
- 07 - Here's the deal
- 26 - The fade?
- October 2014
- 20 - wtf pre 2015
- 20 - cmani
- December 2014
- 13 - It's a breakthrough...
- 20 - Saturday morn before Xmas ..
- 20 - mccm
2015
- February 2015
- 23 - mcmc
- March 2015
- 15 - The weekend
- 15 - The weekend
- 15 - The weekend
- April 2015
- 01 - Today
- 19 - Santa Marta
- 24 - karmaa
- 27 - afterwards
- 28 - shame on you
- June 2015
- 14 - liar liar
- July 2015
- 02 - faaack off
- 22 - musings for vid documenary
- 23 - post rrrrrrrr
- 28 - him
- August 2015
- 03 - probs not his type
- October 2015
- 25 - Garlic
- 25 - cuuuuunt
- 25 - On accents
- 25 - On accents
- 25 - On accents
- 25 - On accents
- 25 - last night bd
2016
- January 2016
- 09 - I feel terrible. Sort of.
- 09 - The Paradox of the Posh ..
- 11 - Times are hard for me right ..
- 12 - I recently returned from a ..
- 16 - Reasons
- 24 - Pros and cons
- 24 - The night before
- March 2016
- 05 - - it is a word in the ..
- 28 - Musings
- April 2016
- 22 - musings 2
- June 2016
- 12 - Natural Hurrrr
- July 2016
- 18 - Josh. He doesn't see me. At ..
- 18 - today
- August 2016
- 03 - Josh pt2
- September 2016
- 10 - The plan
- November 2016
- 12 - How long
- December 2016
- 26 - Sonye
- 26 - steak diginity..
2017
- January 2017
- 03 - Bumping
- 08 - some women
- 10 - cake
- 15 - how nigerians gossip
- 17 - scenes
- 19 - Jeff's tips
- 22 - women's March
- 23 - I fucking hate him. right ..
- February 2017
- 26 - The sickest things
- 27 - he said
- March 2017
- 03 - Adaora names
- 03 - So far so good
- 04 - still
- 04 - still
- 10 - a plan
- 12 - anymore
- 12 - A great deal
- 12 - vloooooooggggg
- April 2017
- 05 - emil
- 12 - I'm starting to really ..
- 13 - poop
- 13 - nocturnal animals
- 25 - A Great Deal (v)
- 25 - A great deal (revised)
- 30 - my night
- May 2017
- 01 - Apparently
- 10 - summer to do
- 11 - Ideas
- 11 - Ideas
- 16 - I can't stop thinking about ..
- 18 - anxiety
- 18 - anxiety
- 21 - thick lips
- 21 - the blackest of berries, ..
- June 2017
- 03 - thick lips part 2
- 30 - Thick lips pt3
- July 2017
- 07 - JK
- 11 - ev
- 23 - bdman
- 30 - fucked up
- 31 - today i started off feeling ..
- 31 - shitty
- August 2017
- 01 - nkm
- 04 - at the bar
- 04 - a few things happened ..
- 05 - the other thing
- 07 - to trans people. ..
- 07 - to trans people. ..
- 09 - Thinking of spe.
- 12 - sex and vulnerability
- 15 - The transformative power of ..
- 27 - whats wrong?
- 28 - sex with a muslim boy
- 29 - points
- 29 - convinced
- 31 - le
- 31 - Tahajjud
- September 2017
- 01 - islam and beating wives
- 01 - islam and beating wives
- 02 - muslims
- 02 - Ladders
- 03 - dick grecory john elton ..
- 04 - dickheads get it
- 12 - changes
- 26 - guys
- October 2017
- 02 - I'm on the phone wtih w. ..
- 05 - he told me that i was the ..
- 06 - Hi, I'm a ..
- 08 - I don't feel comfortable ..
- 10 - the parts
- 11 - dove
- 13 - ritzy part 2
- 13 - we may
- 15 - - i want it to be a love ..
- 16 - saturday night
- 16 - to tyo
- 16 - theory on marriage
- 17 - adoration
- 18 - - So remember the night we ..
- 23 - im beginning
- 23 - we can't be friends
- 25 - to settle
- 28 - childsplay
- 30 - I don't ..
- 31 - Ghosts of ..
2018
- January 2018
- 04 - my thing
- 29 - me: you should delete my ..
- February 2018
- 04 - I'm in love with ud. ..
- 04 - another dream about him
- March 2018
- 01 - two weeks
- 22 - I finally opened the letter ..
- June 2018
- 13 - 4 months
- 22 - relationship
- 24 - tips
- 25 - stay
- 29 - 2:19am
- July 2018
- 04 - dfini and i
- 13 - Day 1 - Monday I ..
- August 2018
- 05 - I started a new job last ..
- 21 - 8pm
- September 2018
- 11 - drm
- October 2018
- 08 - loyalty
- November 2018
- 13 - Today
2019
- January 2019
- 22 - Fear
- 22 - Writers dopest
- 22 - TBY
- February 2019
- 03 - again
- 21 - Take 2 TBY
- 21 - Take 2 TBY
- 25 - no games
- 27 - tb
- March 2019
- 03 - You were inconsistent, at ..
- 04 - Down
- 04 - Gratitude in the face of ..
- 05 - Post tb Day 2
- 05 - Gratitude day 2
- 05 - late night ramblings
- 06 - Tby ramblings.. day 3
- 06 - gratitude day 3
- 07 - still suffering
- 07 - responses
- 08 - Day 4
- 09 - today - day 5
- 09 - grateful
- 13 - day 9
- 15 - day 11
- 18 - day 14
- April 2019
- 28 - anxious preoccupied ..
- 30 - Back again
- September 2019
- 12 - Gems
- October 2019
- 21 - he's here if hes ..
- 28 - almost had me
- November 2019
- 18 - I fall
- December 2019
- 12 - - I don't care if it's ..
2020
- January 2020
- 01 - Subconscious dynamics of ..
- 30 - I feel rejected. That ..
- February 2020
- 09 - shitty stop on a train ride
- March 2020
- 17 - sob
- 27 - the feels
- April 2020
- 29 - the red dress
- May 2020
- 17 - I could have smoked weed ..
- 29 - Mad
- 29 - Mad
- June 2020
- 30 - happy happy
- 30 - I'm 31 and I may fall in ..
- July 2020
- 08 - Trip
- 24 - business
- 27 - Honesty
- October 2020
- 25 - Powerful questions help you ..
- November 2020
- 08 - Parenting my inner child - ..
- 08 - Last night before going to ..
- 08 - Thank god for today. I feel ..
- 09 - Parenting my inner child - ..
- 09 - check in
- 10 - Parenting inner child day 3
- 10 - Progress
- 10 - Progress
- 10 - Progress
- 11 - Gee waking up today was a ..
- 11 - Gee waking up today was a ..
- 12 - Marathon day 4
- 12 - Im super tired right now. ..
- 13 - Marathon day 5
- 13 - We go again. I feel spent. ..
- 14 - I feel so grateful this ..
- 15 - Chant
- 19 - Progress
- 19 - Boundary enforcement
- 21 - Ruth
- 21 - today
- 27 - on auto pilot i just ..
- December 2020
- 01 - Last few days
- 07 - Fuck I’m in love with him ..
- 12 - I'm feeling ambivalent. Im ..
- 14 - scary bridge ..behaviours
- 17 - He gives me safe bridge ..
- 19 - he's ace but...
- 20 - Don't play yourself
2021
- January 2021
- 14 - xv made me cum
- February 2021
- 09 - i miss him
- 18 - no title
- March 2021
- 07 - It's so crazy how i feel. ..
- April 2021
- 06 - He says i'm sweet and ..
- 17 - hernandez boy
- June 2021
- 03 - the split
- 05 - i was just sending a text ..
- 06 - No contact day 2
- 07 - no contact day 3
- 07 - aftermath wisdoms
- 08 - no contact day 4
- 08 - what could it be?
- 09 - No contact day 5
- 12 - No contact day 8
- 13 - no contact day 9
- 13 - things i'm thankful/excited ..
- 14 - bent out of shape
- 15 - No contact day 10
- 17 - NC day 12?
- 17 - first dream in a while
- 17 - i will be beautiful
- 17 - TBY - 21/01/2019
- 17 - to say to ehi
- 17 - Zaddie issues road map ..
- 17 - Burns
- 17 - Advantages of macho-ness - ..
- 17 - T-LOG 19/2/2019
- 17 - I AM'S - 19/02/19
- 17 - SWEET NOTHINGS, BASICALLY - ..
- 17 - Xv wisdoms - 14/12/2020
- 18 - a new day
- 22 - chn
- July 2021
- 02 - happy birthday to me
- 12 - when i
- 19 - the why
- 21 - of course
- 21 - of course
- 21 - why 2
- 22 - why 3
- September 2021
- 10 - come back to this when ..
- 10 - score
- 11 - i wont forget this
- 12 - He’s an ass After ..
- 15 - I wrote this earlier ..
- October 2021
- 31 - Update
- November 2021
- 05 - Mood check pre ..
- 11 - I didnt want to tell him ..
- 14 - He gets irritated with me. ..
- 19 - Olive branch
- 19 - ada
- 22 - I feel like my frequency is ..
- 25 - Today.
- December 2021
- 07 - dinner at home gone awry
- 07 - all of what i just wrote ..
2022
- January 2022
- 13 - today
- 21 - did you stretch?
- 21 - 3 rejections this week
- 22 - didn't get into bv
- February 2022
- 02 - Feb 2022, week 1
- 09 - sushi
- 22 - sunday - we had a ..
- March 2022
- 08 - Fffffffff
- 23 - mad
- 27 - this weekend has been a bit ..
- 30 - play away
- 31 - abbs
- April 2022
- 15 - non-plan
- 29 - back now
- 29 - airport returning back to ..
- May 2022
- 14 - i feel like im about to ..
- 21 - im mad
- 21 - quetsions to plan my week
- 22 - sunday
- June 2022
- 02 - yo, i'm really feeling it ..
- 25 - yo. this week has been ..
- 30 - today
- July 2022
- 05 - Be strong
- 12 - chnye dream
- 17 - heavy headed
- 22 - Nervous breakdown
- August 2022
- 04 - break up
- 10 - had a dream about flx lsat ..
- 23 - I can’t
- 23 - Flx msged me yesterday when ..
- 23 - I forget everything. I ..
- 25 - everything will be alright
- September 2022
- 09 - I’ve over ..
- 12 - I don’t know how much ..
- 12 - Son August ..
- 12 - I don’t feel well ..
- 12 - I don’t feel well ..
- 12 - I don’t feel well ..
- 27 - i know i fuck up sometimes. ..
- 27 - i know i fuck up sometimes. ..
- October 2022
- 03 - it's happening. spiral ..
- 10 - on fire
- 17 - flx dream
- 20 - These dreams
- November 2022
- 05 - Azb called, to ask whether ..
- 14 - it feels like i haven't ..
- 16 - we went to the gym ..
- 17 - i've sepnt the last couple ..
- 21 - These spiritual, ..
- 21 - i haven't heard from pl. ..
- 28 - Why is he doing this to ..
- December 2022
- 03 - Day after
- 07 - It’s a week gone now. It’s ..
- 10 - It’s done
- 10 - He really hurt me. “No one ..
- 22 - almost xmas 2023
- 23 - happy holidays
- 23 - throw back to "play away"
- 25 - merry fucking christmas
- 25 - shift
- 27 - had an argument with echi ..
- 31 - December 2022
2023
- January 2023
- 02 - I fnished the 'why we ..
- 02 - do things to challenge ..
- 04 - moonshine
- 04 - hinge
- 06 - purify me
- 09 - Again
- 09 - Again
- 09 - Again
- 13 - it's as if the only ..
- 15 - My dream
- 15 - My dream_corrected
- 18 - everything that offers ..
- 18 - how i'd describe him
- 20 - i want what she's got
- 21 - i'm trying to work, trying ..
- 22 - cr dream
- 25 - What a day. Feels like I’ve ..
- 27 - Alls I’ve done today is ..
- 30 - i was flossing last night ..
- February 2023
- 01 - I b can’t believe it’s been ..
- 03 - had a weird dream. it ..
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