DelBae

The Girl who Kneels
2018-06-20 02:04:10 (UTC)

To Begin

Hello!
I was googling a bunch to see how I should start this and I think I’ll answer a couple of questions I found on a site to get the ball rolling.

Q: What appeals to you about being a submissive and apart of the Kink community?

A: I’ve always been a submissive and/or kinky person in the bedroom. I lost my virginity at 15, tied up and in a threesome with two guys. If that doesn’t say ‘kinky beginning’ then I really don’t know what would. It kind of just built from there.

Outside of the bedroom I can be quite out going, and opinionated.
There’s this quote I found on tumblr that says: ‘I’m an aggressive, yet submissive woman. This means I will dominate you if you let me, but I will submit if you are masculine enough to make me want to.’ And that resonates with me, because it’s very true. It’s partially part of my personality- I like to push people to see how far they’ll let me go. It’s not a great trait, however it’s still a part of me. I can be quite manipulative, I will often try to top from the bottom to get what I want. It can be annoying, and I do know when to reel it in - especially when my Dom gives me his ‘you are very close to being disrespectful’ look and I’m like ‘aw shit, my bad.’
I think if I had a stricter Dom, or if I had a 24/7 dynamic, I would forever be walking around with a limp from all the bruises and welts on my ass. His hand would also be always sore, so that would be satisfying to me, If I have to suffer so should He!
Back to the Question (I ramble), once my Dom can get me to the sub space I listen very well and I’m very calm and happy. It’s like someone flips a switch and I’m just at peace. I love it. And I love that my Boyfriend is the one who can flip that switch!
Submission is important to me. My life can be overwhelming. I have anxiety, depression and probably a bit of an eating disorder (allegedly). After an especially tough day or week, a scene is just what I need to refocus myself and get my emotions in order. I think something I need to work on would be asking for a scene or just right out saying ‘hey I’ve had a stressful day and I would love to be spanked tonight’. That would also probably help combat the topping from the bottom attitude I get. It’s a work in progress, guys.

What also helps me is that The Kink community is great! It’s very accepting. You can be into some weird stuff and find friends who also enjoy that weird stuff! The community is friendly, and there’s groups of people and society’s everywhere! Where I live, the community is decent sized. There’s dungeons and get togethers. Play party’s, etc. It’s a safe space. On top of the in person groups, there’s also online groups for those who don’t have time to meet up in person or have anxiety about social gatherings. My Dom has been to a dungeon once or twice and He said it was a good experience. One day we will probably attend a munch together and then go to a dungeon to play! Maybe in September.

To conclude, I’m very happy in my role of a submissive, brat, princess etc. Its apart of who I am! if you don’t know what Fetlife.com is, and you’re interested in getting know other kinky people, I would suggest signing up. It’s completely free, and if you want to know my username you can ask in a message :)

Xoxo




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