Scarlett Stell

diary of a broken girl
2018-04-06 01:40:58 (UTC)

Depressed Again

Thursday, April 5, 2018
Well I'm getting depressed again. I'm not sure what to do or who to go to. There is way too much going on in my life right now. First I'm not even suppose to be talking to my biological mom, but I am. About the cancer I mentioned in a previous entry, it runs on her side of the family. There's so many things I want to say to her, but I don't know how. My step dad is having a new roof put on our house. With all of this stuff going on with my birth mom, I don't know what to think. She's telling me all this stuff and I don't who to believe because growing up I've always heard a different story. (Let's call my biological mom Kimmie). Kimme was always the "bad guy." I don't who to believe. My whole life I've been told Kimmie never even tried to see me or have anything to do with me. She showed me screenshots of emails and text messages where she has begged to be a part of my life, but was told "no" every time. I mean she was just 16 when she had me. I've been told that I was almost an abortion, but I don't know. I don't know if I should ask Kimmie about it. Anyway on another note, I don't even know if I'm single or not. My best friend keeps calling me baby and baby girl, I'm letting him because honestly I don't care if he calls me that, but I don't know if we are dating or not. I don't what he thinks, and I'm not gonna ask him either. I'll let him think what he thinks. He will know what I think when he reads this because I know he always reads my diary entry's. I'm not in a relationship with any body right now. Not even him. I'm going to stay single for a while, and that's that. So I don't know. Anyway I'm really tired, so goodnight!
Yours Truly,
Princess Nikki




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