Scarlett Stell

diary of a broken girl
2018-03-25 19:36:05 (UTC)

About Him

Sunday, March 25, 2018
Okay so I have some things on my mind about this guy. He doesn't care if I use his name, his name is Richard. I don't even know where to begin. All my life no body's really cared about me or the way I felt. Then all of a sudden Richard comes in my life and everything changes. Right before I met him, I was thinking very seriously about suicide. Cause before he came along, I had no one. I had a boyfriend at the time but he didn't give a damn about me or what happened to me. Then he started texting me and something about him had just told me not to kill myself. So I didn't. Very slowly the suicidal part of me is fading away because of him. I'm not as suicidal as I use to be. If I'm being honest I think that the suicidal part of me is completely gone. All because of him. He makes my day so much better and honestly I have feelings for him. I'm not sure how those feelings go, but it's definitely deeper than I've ever known before. I would say I'm in love with him, but honestly I think it's something more. I have felt love before. What I feel when I'm talking to him is something way more than that, like it's stronger in a way. I know I love him I tell him almost every day. Would I ever date this guy? Probably. Not right now, because I'm definitely too young for him. I know I'll always be, but when I'm a bit older, it won't be as bad and it wouldn't look as bad as it would know in the eyes of the law. The way I feel about him is unbelievable. I don't even know how to put it in words. He makes me laugh when I want to cry. He just lightens up my day. There's something about him. I don't even know how to put the way I feel about him in words.
Yours Truly,
Princess Nikki




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