Lenne

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2018-02-19 07:27:56 (UTC)

Dissapointed in myself

And my plan for week end worked for main parts only: to do home task for sewing, drive my family to buy products, visit my hair stylist, have rest and sleep, feed myself and to do all home cosmetic procedures. I’ve never visited club and haven’t even tried to go for a walk in city’s centre, where main celebration of Maslenitsa took place. Saturday’s evening from 7 till midnight I’ve spent sewing my skirt. I’ve finished what I hadn’t done on Thursday in class: stitched skirt and backing and made a belt. I was doing it all slowly and accurately, giving myself time to rethink what I was doing. Next time I will work other sewing machines to make tracks look beautiful - serger. One more thing I have to deal with, and first I need to learn how to do it.
Oh, Ok, leave this thing with night club alone – I don’t need it so much, but what was wrong with walking on Sunday? It wasn’t that cold – just -4 degrees, just a little bit snowy. But I had no mood and strength, I felt tired and a bit sick. I told myself in the morning that it is because of sleep less again – I was in bed at 2 a.m. and woke up at 8 a.m. already, which is not good after such a week. I had a nap after luch and even after that I fell asleep at 23:00, when usually after having a nap after lunch I can’t go sleep till 2 a.m. again. And during the day I wasn’t that calm and nice to my family.
That is how it worked. And my laziness is killing me. It is nothing more than laziness and slowliness. I made it with gym on Friday, for example, I had 40 minutes for good and exercise machine and 30 minutes of training for my fit, but I could do more. I felt my head became heavy and preferred to finish it earlier, having just 25 minutes of slow walking after it – that’s just about nothing. And when I came home I ate as much pan cakes as I could.
You see, I am hopeless. How on the Earth could I lose 3 kilos, train my muscles and get good figure, find a man of my dreams and learn real sewing just sitting at home eating sweet and fet, sometimes driving my family to the moll? What I am doing it all for if I never pay enough attention to any of those things? Pity. I am disappointed in myself…




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