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2018-01-26 22:33:39 (UTC)

Too long till the weekend

Mood: Excited
Song: none playing currently but i have hold on by the Jonas brothers stuck in my head...random i know!
Color: Dark Pink

Okay so it's Finally Friday, Friday has always been one of my favorite days of the week and not because it's the end or the start of the weekend but because good things have happened to me on Fridays...they are usually good day's for me and i hope that today/Tonight with B and Amber will be no different.
This week has been ridiculously long and bad and just ugh and blah and i'm ready to put it behind me for a while, even my mother said it was good that i was getting away for a bit so that i could Breathe....she's not wrong.
I am really excited and a tiny bit nervous...don't know where that's coming from so i'll just chalk that up to anticipation.
I was/ am going through my to do list right now, all the things that i need to do before i can walk out of this house....
I need to pack my bag, gather all the stuff i'm bringing and put it in the bag.
wait for the laundry and switch it.
I needed to write this entry because i'm not going to get the chance to this evening and i don't want to have to worry about missing a day of writing.
which i almost forgot to write and i have things to be getting but i forced myself to sit down and write this.

Long week and it's felt like it's taken to long till the weekend and i feel like these last couple of hours have been the longest.
It's like a kid waiting for something, the closer it gets the harder it is to wait.
I want tonight to be fun.
I want to be a little care free for a while.
I don't want to do anything stupid or not like myself, i will admit a bit more rational thought has entered my head since the other day, but i'd be lying if i said i didn't still feel a bit like i did the other day.

The other day felt a little like i was losing myself but i didn't care that i felt different.
that was what scared me...change and me don't typically get along but i didn't care, like i guess something inside me reached it's boiling point and that was that.
I feel different everyday....
that's why we've got to take it one day at a time and just enjoy the moment you have, not worrying about the future or being stuck in the past but to just live in the right now.