Ren

Journeytobehappy
2018-01-20 15:08:02 (UTC)

What now?

I wish i could talk to you everyday. There are lots of things i'd like to share, my thoughts, actions, feelings. It's just that i'm not a good person anymore and i don't want you to get so disappointed in me. i'm continually sorting my mind so i could do something right with my situation. But i'm a coward. I'm ashamed of how much of a coward wretched person i am. I try not to say bad things about myself but that's just the truth. I feel bad that i wrong people and i will continually to do so until i get the courage the own my shit.


I hope it make sense to you (dear future self) cause things are starting to make sense to me now. Like why people get tired of people after stringing them all along. Like why people get to be so careless with people's hearts. I didn't mean to. it just happened. I was pulled down the gutter perhaps to find myself. Perhaps to see how corrupt i could be.


I just feel so bad for Raymund.

Update on my next entry




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