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2018-01-03 22:12:11 (UTC)

Dig me up from under what is covering the better part of me.

I want to tell you that no matter what I say or do around you, or other people for that matter, that I'm here for you. I adore you. You really are my everything.

The look in your eyes and facial expression sometimes suggest that you don't believe me, or that you're insecure of my feelings towards you. I need you to know that I care about you, more than I've ever cared about anything.

I'm certain that if you were to ever actually read this, you'd straight away roll your eyes and brush it off, like it's just something that people say. That I'm just another sheep telling you what you want to hear.

Believe me when I tell you, or when you read this that I fucking love you more than anything in this world. More than anyone I've ever cared about. And to an extent, even my very own family.

I know that one day I'll marry you, father your children and love you unconditionally.

I know that in the past, when I've been with someone my mind has wandered. I've thought about previous relationships or people that I've been with, compared them with who I'm seeing. Missed them and wanted to return to them. But with you, everything is different. I've not thought about previous relationships without prompt. I've not missed previous relationships or the things we did, the places we experienced.

With you, it's like I've come across a new experience. A new set of feelings. A new way of life. I am with you.

Sure, you absolutely fucking piss me off when you get stressed or when you're in a bad mood. But I understand why you have these emotions and why you are the way you are. I wish you'd 'relax' or 'chill' more, and give less of a fuck towards the majority of things that put you in these emotional states.

The things I used to love, the hobbies I used to complete, none of it matters. I'd be more willing to sit in silence next to you, than do any of these things I used to enjoy. They seem somewhat lacking compared to just, being near you.

I fucking miss you the second you leave my side. I can't imagine being apart from you, not holding you in my arms at night. You are my everything, you are my world.

Remind me that we'll always have each other, when everything else is gone.