Rabi

White Cloud
2017-12-31 05:27:06 (UTC)

Forgiveness

Dear Diary,

We always carry with us the heavy burden or pain I may say of people who have hurt us, literally which felt like a stab of a knife. Our soul gets heavy, the light in our heart is covered with this shadow of darkness which does not seem to go away. Even at happy times we tend to remember those horrible memories and in an instant the happiness fades away. It is so easy to drown ourselves into this pool of heartbreak but so difficult to plunge out of it.

There is a way which most of us even dread to take and its called FORGIVENESS.

We expect people to forgive us but we often do not forgive others. It is very easy to say it but in reality you truly free yourself and lighten your burden is when you simply forgive from deep within your soul. I have been physically, mentally and emotionally abused and it seems nearly impossible to many that how can I be so ''okay?''. I AM because I CHOOSE to be. I was not a victim, I am SURVIVOR.
I choose to forgive the man who tortured me and damaged depths of my soul because NOW I choose to heal and free my soul from this unwanted heavy burden.

There is one more thing that I need to do and that is FORGIVE MYSELF. I need to forgive myself for allowing this petty human to take advantage of me, to use me, abuse me, play with my feelings and the feelings of my family, to give him the authority over my life, to give him my heart, soul and body and most of all to let him go this far of taking 8 years of my life.

Its time, It is time for me to finally accept that as a human I made my share of mistakes but that does not DEFINE my future, it is only a lesson learnt to help me carve a more better, beautiful and brighter Future with the most amazing gift - my daughter, my baby girl.




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