Ren

Journeytobehappy
2017-12-24 12:28:29 (UTC)

My ex's bestfriend

I feel so broken and i thought i'd go for casual sex. I was planning to break up with my current boyfriend. I'm not ready for a serious relationship anyway.

Coincidentally, Vincent contacted me that day, again. He's telling me how she's going to treat her new girl right and how he won't have sex with her because he highly respects her. You can't imagine how bad that made me feel.
He says he misses me. And he said if the girl would just give her a chance, he won't hurt her just like he did to me.


That time the girl rejected her. He was devastated. So he turned to me for comfort. I wanted to tell him to stop talking to me but he went right up and told me he's use that nobody comforts him. So i wasn't able to say it.
I comforted him.
He told me a lot of things about them.
I was so hurt. He said he knew i was about to ask him to stop talking me. He said it's up to me. He said that if i'd give him another chance he'd treat me better than the girl who recently rejected him.
I could have walk away right? I could have said no. I could've chosen the right road. But i can't bring myself to. I didn't want to lost him.
I was so hurt but i thought even if we're not together atleast i still get to talk to him.

He knows how i feel about him and the fact that i want it to stop. So i suggested he hook me up with his friends. Preferably 2 or 3 of them so i won't get attached to any of them.
He was still against it. He said it would kill him inside to know his friends are fucking me. His friends are fuckboys btw. We went on it for hours until he finally agreed but begrudgingly. I told him if he doesn't help me i'd stop talking to him.


So he gave my number to his friends. And even thougn i told him to not say my intentions, he did. So i was embarassed. He also gave my number to the guy who i mentioned in my previous entry as the handsome guy who came too strong. I was so embarassed to think about it.

Fast forward.
I thought it was going well but yesterday Vincent called and was upset. He was swearing at me and calling me a desperate ugly slut between his sentences. For some reason i find it amusing and i kept chuckling. He said why i was doing it? He said i don't care about his feelings at all and i might have just kill him.
He told me he wish i would just kill myself. That gave me a blow. I kept quiet.
He mocked if i was going to cry. He told me what his friends' plans to me. He said they'd gang rape me.

I was so hurt but i just want to eased the pain i feel inside. The only guy who texted me was his bestfriend. Very flirty. We both like to talk dirty. He said he has never met a girl who likes to talk about sex like i do. He was sooo fun to talk to we talked from 8pm to pass 1 in the morning. Haha.

So today, Vincent called again. He said he doesn't care about us anymore. He hates his bestfriend but he'd eventually forgive him. He said he understands that his bestfriend likes leftover women anyway.
He have a way of hurting me. Haha

I talked to his bestfriend just now. I said maybe we need to stop talking because Vincent is so mean to me. He said i should stop answering his calls already so he won't be able to hurt me. I said i can't because i have feelings for him.




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