Ruinsofbeauty

Sleepless Dreams
2017-12-22 15:50:50 (UTC)

Beast Update

I thought, perhaps, you'd like an update on the beast. They're still here, having these Sanford & Son type sales every weekend. The wife is out there hustling, while, as usual, the beast hides in the shadows. I'll be damned if I'd be out there trying to sell the stuff when the whole reason I had to move at all is because my husband fell in love with another woman. Oops.. I don't know if she knows that. I don't know if she knows it was love. She probably thinks it was just about sex, but she'd better take a second look at that man. Does he look like a greek god to you? Does he look like anyone at all who people would meet strictly for sex? lol (Oh, shit. I'm sorry. I actually did laugh out loud at that one.) I had to ask, though, because she's been snowed before. She has stared a lie in the face and still believed something else, which is fine. Whatever floats her boat. Our boats don't even float in the same kinds of waters. I don't much care for swamps. At any rate, they're still here.. selling stuff. I guess they need the money or can't take all of their stuff. As for me, I feel great. Sometime after I started writing these entries, he stopped lurking. 10 months after this whole ordeal with the confrontation, he has finally stopped. I'm really sorry that it had to come to this. All of this is extremely out of character for me. There are probably some people who know me who will wonder why I did it, and why I chose to do it in this manner. They'll wonder why I didn't just stay quiet and wait for it blow over. I didn't do that because that's what he expected me to do. He was counting on my being too afraid and too weak to say anything at all. He knew his wife would never ask anyone who could actually give her the answers (which is virtually anyone within a 10 mile radius). Even the guys at the park know. Yeah, that thing he used to do that he considered work but was really a pasttime? All those guys know, too. He told everyone. (I guess he was bragging.) I never cared about that. I just thought it was stupid. He was setting himself up to be in the position he's in now. Everyone knows. How can you hide something that everyone knows? I guess that's why he's moving his bubble he keeps them in. Well, we have to give him credit, because he managed to convince his family that it didn't happen, or that it was just me. The first time they found out, he lied and said it was just "sexting". They didn't know that I was just around the corner at that point, though. This second time, they found me. So he probably said that I got carried away with the fantasy of it all and was making advances that he refused. Or maybe that he had done it once, but he had been trying to get rid of me ever since. I'd have an easier time believing that an overweight man, wearing a red suit, flew through the night skies on Christmas Eve, leaving presents for all those who had been nice this year. The beast? He's getting a lump of coal. So why did I do it? Why was I willing to humiliate myself in order to get this out there? Because this lying sack of shit got too much from me as it was. He's never going to feel guilty or remorseful about any of this. He doesn't have the capacity to feel those things. When he cries? He's not crying because he's sorry. He's crying because he got caught. I'm not going to be the scapegoat for someone too stupid to realize that everything I've stated can be verified. Everyone saw the stalking, everyone saw who the pursuer was, everyone saw him do everything, and everyone saw me sitting in my castle as he climbed the tower to either take me out or come in. I never made him do anything that he didn't want to do. These two tried to write their own ending and didn't bother considering that I would get trampled in the process. No one believes their ending, but that isn't the point. I don't let people write my ending. I write my own.. and my ending has endless possibilities because I'm not trapped like they are. Their ending is as old as dirt. Wife sticks by lying husband. That story has been being told since before Jesus. Mine will be an original. And to all the women out there with a beast? Stop taking his shit. Stand up for yourself. It feels good.




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