Today was a good day, I enjoy birthdays. It was one of my nephews tenth birthday. I get so emotional seeing them grow up. I love my boys, though. They're all so different but I have so much love for them. Family time usually makes me feel shitty, but today was different. I actually interacted with my mum. I feel content right now. No bad feelings yet. Another hour and a half, and I'll have made it through the day without wanting to kill myself. One step at a time, right?