I got woken up this morning by my partner coming in to give me a kiss before she went to work. I ended up jumping out of bed, and we had breakfast together before she had to go. Mornings like this make me forget all the bad stuff. She left, I made myself a cup of tea, and now I'm back to sitting on the sofa with these terrible thoughts. Why can't it just go away? What have I done to deserve all this negativity in my head? I try my best to be a good person, a positive person. I'm always putting other people first and making everyone happy.. But when is it my turn to be happy? - It's my nephews birthday today, he's 10. Going to see the boys always puts a smile on my face.