Todayy

A southern life
2017-11-20 03:44:21 (UTC)

Rereading

I don't like rereading my writing because it shows my mistakes and I don't like my mistakes but what I do like about is that I can see how much I have progressed and I am going to do that now and I am so freaking anxious and nerves I don't know why. Here it goes.

I read it and wow. I am such a drama queen! There are some parts where I don't believe in anymore and then there were some other parts where I am FUCKING RIGHT!! Like I predicted that shit so well and I ended up being right so well! Like how the fuck did I do that?
On other parts, I started crying because I told my future self sorry for everything and that really got to me. Then I cried at other parts where I wrote down how much I was suffering and I am going to write to my past/future self now.
To my past self:
I am sorry. I am so sorry for letting you down.
To my future self:
I will not let you down again baby. Okay, I will NOT quit on you and I will never let you feel that low ever again do you hear me? I will not. I will push. We will push. Because we are strong god damn it and you have been through fucking worse. There will be times when we will feel sad but damn it we will not let the dark consume again. You are worth it and you always will be. We will improve and it will be work that will not go to waste. I love you. I will always love you.




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