Kill Switch

The Chaos Code
2017-11-13 16:21:13 (UTC)

Break Time

Okay. So. . .I completely redeemed myself today and got up at 7:30am, went to coffee shop around 8am, and I have literally stayed there studying nonstop and taking notes since 8am till now...3:22pm. Nonstop. I can't even describe how exhausted I am. I am finally home. But damn I just....really did not realize how burnt out I was until I took the entire day yesterday to do NOTHING. Absolutely NOTHING.


I popped about 12...maybe 14....valium throughout the day. Went a little overboard there, but that's okay. Played Skyrim and vaped...for hours. Watched creepy childhood cartoons. And some Star Trek TOS. I needed that day so badly. I felt like a fucking failure, but replenishing my energy like that was exactly what I needed. Because I have been productive af today. SO productive. So so so productive. I am 97% done with what I need to do for my anatomy and physiology class. Probably need about. . .4-5 more hours of work. Then I will be ready. And then I can just study. And my exam is tomorrow....so.

But I am doing a lot in the morning hours tomorrow because I need to talk to a university adviser here for their pre-med program. And a career adviser on whether to stay with vet med or switch to human med. And then I'm going to be doing other things...for a few hours. And only THEN will I be home..late in the afternoon...to take my exam.

So i need to get all the rest of this stuff done by tonight. And I will. I just need a motherfucking break. Damn.




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